deepdiveintotheblue
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Please, not always, let people love you, they should
it always came down to this, since the very beginning of time but if we keep wanting it, we're told it's pathetic, by the time we act tough, it might be gone. fools.
E.E. Cummings, Complete Poems, 1904-1962
You are going to be okay.
fuck, just felt this emotion rn inside of me
why do I feel so anxious
I kept spiraling with a lot of emotions the entire day, my anxiety and fears never stopped giving me a hard time. I thought of all things that could go wrong, all the ways that I'm incapable of love and maybe keeping it alive, all the ways I really truly desire people to be close to me yet I fear them being replaceable or me being replaced. Everything felt like a big puzzle, big chunk of questions kept coming to me, tarot readings made my days even worse, and despite it all. I just wanna sleep in my blanket and dream and feel safe and say this to myself that,
"Darling, if its the right person. The love will always stay. Love is always the answer. It will stay. Love will always stay. You'll know when you know."
I'm trying my best
date sweet men. men who can articulate themselves. men who are soft spoken. men who are patient with you. men who respect their own bodies. men who are kind to your soul. men that are gentle. men who have self control.
I mean, I do have this placement but let's see. Manifesting✨️💅
Moon darakarka (in female chart)
Future spouse ( green flag)
Caring
Emotional
Loyal
Emotional supportive
Nurturing
Deep eyes
Sensitive
Protective
Good cook
what if, all my life I just end up seeing everyone else fall in love? and wait for mine but it's never been close?
what if, I'm always gonna stay this way? afraid of being someone's person
L (she/her) may I have a quote from my crush G(he/him)
Game :
🗣️ get a quote from your person \angel \friends \parents \universe \etc [end of thinking capacity ] 🩷
rules :
like + reblog this post .
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Mention your initials+ pronouns+ other person's initial+ pronouns if you want channeled quote from a person .
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I'll only reply to people who follow all the above mentioned rules .
Asks will be answered privately 🤍
for Little fun please add some things about yourself I'll love to read them 🐣 . It's necessary to add okay !
Example : g [she\her ] may I have a quote from my friend s [he\him ] .
Example : g [she\her ] may I have a quote from universe .
Status: open
what is it that keeps me diving in and out of this mess, that is my heart?
I keep getting closer, yet so farther away
I wanna be touched, kissed, smothered
but at the same time held, caressed and loved
but also choked, pinned, and slammed
all these feelings yet I ask you the same question
where are you?
can you please come home soon?
can you please just hold me a lil bit higher?
can you not complain that I'm being needy?
and can you also not complain that I'm being distant with you?
Idk how to heal ny heart
idk how to feel anymore
I feel rushed and crushed under this pile of my age
I've 20,21,22 and 23
everyone of them have felt the same
I wanna change and runaway
I wanna hide and bite and kiss you all at the same time
Idk my extent of my emotions
a love like that, all mine🫀
Joanna Glenn, from her novel titled "All My Mothers," originally published in 2021
🧿
good things will happen 💫
things that are meant to be will fall into place 💫
this is not love, i'm a glorified doorstop .
[i don't smoke ~ mitski / please be rude ~ gigi perez / step on me ~ the cardigans / you can be mean ~ indigo de souza / wurli ~ dominic fike / jigsaw ~ conan gray]
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
I'm his dream person
You’re someone’s dream person btw.
Short Story Recommendations
These all fuck me up to a varying degree of emotions
Crime
Philomel Cottage - Agatha Christie
Lamb to the Slaughter - Roald Dahl
Death and the Compass - Jorge Luis Borges
Horror
The Landlady - Roald Dahl
A Walk in the Dark - Arthur C Clarke
The Wife’s Story - Ursula K Le Guin
The Veldt - Ray Bradbury
The Hanging Stranger - Philip K Dick
The Colour out of Space - H P Lovecraft
The Spider - Hanns Heinz Ewers
Sad
The Life You Save May Be Your Own - Flannery O’Connor
A Small, Good Thing - Raymond Carver
Cathedral - Raymond Carver
The Haunted Boy - Carson McCullers
The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas - Ursula K. Le Guin
The Chef - Andy Weir
The Martyr - Ngugi Wa Thiong’o
Jambula Tree - Monica Arak de Nyeko
The Rats Do Sleep At Night - Wolfgang Borchert
Sci-Fi
Love is the Plan the Plan is Death - James Tiptree Jr
The Last Question - Isaac Asimov
The Nine Billion Names of God - Arthur C Clarke
The Star - Arthur C Clarke
Reunion - Arthur C Clarke
The Commuter - Philip K Dick
Exhibit Piece - Philip K Dick
To Serve Man - Damon Knight
Brothers Beyond the Void - Paul W Fairman
What the Fuck?!
The Lottery - Shirley Jackson
A Collapse of Horses - Brian Evenson
Some of Us Had Been Threatening Our Friend Colby - Donald Barthelme
Hopeful Monsters - Hiromi Goto
The Box Social - James Reaney
He-y come on ou-t - shinichi hoshi
The Garden of Forking Paths - Jorge Luis Borges
Stories of Your Life and Others - Ted Chiang (just the entire collection bro)
Other
Broken Routine - Jeffrey Archer
A Man Who Had No Eyes - Mackinlay Kantor
Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been - Joyce Carol Oates
The Lady, or the Tiger - Frank R Stockton
The Continuity of Parks - Julio Cortázar
The Dinner Party - Mona Gardner
A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings - Gabriel García Márquez
On Exactitude in Science - Jorge Luis Borges
and I'm not gonna share any of it with anyone
i want romance. i want intimacy. i want the 2 am love making. i want consistency, loyalty. i want the random looks of admiration. i want to know you're just for me. i want date nights. i want love so pure and true. i want it because i can return it.
Jeanette Winterson, from The PowerBook
- James Baldwin talking about Love
“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”
— Unknown
The lights almost out now.
Kurt Vonnegut, from Mother Night; "Chapter Six Hundred & Fourty Three,"
anyway, don't be a stranger
p.s. i still wait for you
Sorry to break it to you but you literally have to face your fears and slaughter them. Otherwise you will live a small life that you do not want. You literally have to view your biggest fears and attack them head on. You have to fall into the abyss to find your way out. The easy path does not exist. There is no get out of jail free card. You have to allow yourself to die a spiritual death over and over again in order to reinvent yourself into the person you are actually supposed to be. And you have to be painfully honest with yourself and the people around you. It’s horrible but it’s truly the only way.
ur early 20s are about being obsessed with kindness and mary oliver and seasonal fruits and recreating comfort foods you ate as a child and learning how to love and crying because you have no choice but to live the life before you and finding god on the bus back from the grocery store
Angela Carter, from The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories; "The Courtship of Mr Lyon,"