“Please Stop Destroying What Is Left Of Your Heart By Constantly Thinking About Things That Have Broken

On some days, I feel this deep longing

For someone.

To be held, to feel my heartbeat

To feel the warmth of my body

Against someone.

On some nights, I sleep listening

To slow love songs.

Pretend that its raining outside

And wrap myself around

The warmth of a comforter and

Fall asleep

Pretending that I'm being loved by someone.

I don't know what is this urge of a human

To be loved so deeply,

That everything else seems insignificant.

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

“How long will it feel like burning, said the child trying to be kind.”

— Anne Carson, from Decreation; Lines.

what is it that keeps me diving in and out of this mess, that is my heart?

I keep getting closer, yet so farther away

I wanna be touched, kissed, smothered

but at the same time held, caressed and loved

but also choked, pinned, and slammed

all these feelings yet I ask you the same question

where are you?

can you please come home soon?

can you please just hold me a lil bit higher?

can you not complain that I'm being needy?

and can you also not complain that I'm being distant with you?

Idk how to heal ny heart

idk how to feel anymore

I feel rushed and crushed under this pile of my age

I've 20,21,22 and 23

everyone of them have felt the same

I wanna change and runaway

I wanna hide and bite and kiss you all at the same time

Idk my extent of my emotions

Jeanette Winterson, from The PowerBook

somedays, the urge to disappear from the face this earth is very enchanting to me

just like taylor would say

"My elegies, eulogize me "

On days where i want to be wrapped

around your arms

I want to be embraced in the warmth

Of your presence

🧿

good things will happen 💫

things that are meant to be will fall into place 💫

Kurt Vonnegut, from Mother Night; "Chapter Six Hundred & Fourty Three,"