Writer Chaos - Blog Posts

just tried to outline future chapters and my brain nearly short circuited. my creative mind is not meant to be confined to the chains of bullet points and organization she simply isn’t

does it take anyone else a good minute to get immersed into their fictional world before you can start writing for the day?

like i need to sit in front of my computer with nothing but tumbleweed passing in my brain for at least an hour before i can really lock in.

especially after a solid writing break. i need to re-read the most recent scene i’ve written at least ten times to bring myself back into the character’s mind and feelings

i didn’t plan for the telenovela flair some of the characters/storylines in my book series have, but i actually love it so much…

not only does it feel good to represent my latin culture in someway, but it’s also just ridiculously fun to write😭

it adds a layer of unseriousness/comedy that my books need given some of the more serious issues i write about.

the reveals!!! the drama!!! the scandal!!! i’ve somehow created a coming of age version of the tv shows jane the virgin, gossip girl, and friends all at once????

kind of alarming how all the thriller/horror story ideas i’ve gotten have come from dreams/nightmares i’ve had😁 it pays to have a twisted, fucked up mind.

i’ve never written a thriller/horror story so i’m very excited to further explore the genre one day. i totally haven’t already written a few test pieces/scenes.

god, if you all could take a peek into my writing ideas folder😭 pure chaos. idk how to simply focus on one thing at a time. i’m like an overzealous dog with the writing zoomies.

i’m surprised by how much i *love* writing in third person considering how much i used to dislike reading in third person.

finding my love for writing again has made me appreciate third person writing so much more!!!

third person chapters have become like an exclusive, special pov in my series since 90% of the chapters i write are in the first person pov.

what can i say, i love playing with/switching up pov’s mid story😄 whether it’s including multiple character pov’s in one book or surprising the readers by randomly jumping into a third person pov.

like you know it’s serious if you stumble across a third person pov in one of my books😭 shit is about to go down fr

*knocks on wood* is it weird that i’ve never seriously suffered from writer’s block….

i just feel like i’m constantly seeing other writers talk about how much of a struggle it is for them to even write a sentence, and i’ve just… never had that problem? like i have TOO much to write about to never not know what to write, if that makes sense.

i blame all the premature life experiences i’ve had. maybe that’s what it is since i tend to draw inspiration from personal experiences. all my trauma is finally coming in handy for something omg😭

this is why writing is literally the most *perfect* thing for me. you’re telling me i get to have fun creating characters, romance, and storylines, *and* i get to pour my own personal experiences into my characters and stories in the most therapeutic way???? sign me up for life please!!!!

is it bad that one of my favorite characters i’ve written so far just so happens to be one of the most “villainous”?

i use quotations because she’s not necessarily a bad person, she’s just made a lot of awful choices that have led to awful circumstances for her and those around her.

she’s also someone who’s been through a lot. she has a good heart through and through, but i can definitely see some readers disliking her, which is fine!

it’s exactly what i want, actually. i want her to be a character people have mixed feelings about. i want her to be a character you either hate to love, love to hate, or somewhere in between.

funniest part is she was only supposed to be a side character aka the mother of one of my character’s😭

now she’s become my little phoenix rising from the ashes as the catalyst for the biggest scandal in my book series.

the main character before my current main character was the main character. she paved the way fr i cannot wait to write her prologue book one day!

as discouraging as it can be writing to an audience of zero, i’m so locked in atp, idec anymore😭 delusion is my feul

i LOVE my characters and the little universe i created in my head sm, each of their books WILL be written and finished even if i’m the only one who knows of their existence!

i feel like i not only owe it to myself to see it through, but to my characters and their stories. they’re like my children, i can’t just abandon them because no one else is seeing their potential like i do?????

what kind of mother would that make me

i’ve never trusted my heart and ~gone with the flow~ more than i do with writing.

idk if this makes me an unhinged or ~irresponsible writer~ but i have never enjoyed the idea of outlining my work. something about it makes my writing feel so caged and limited and i HATE it!!!

obviously you can always simply go off script and change whatever the hell u want, but i still refuse to completely plan out every. single. thing. in some overly detailed outline. (and that’s just me, i’m not knocking anyone who does!!!)

of course i write down important plot points and key notes to incorporate and remember but other than that, i’m a big believer in “sharing” control with my characters.

sure i have solid ideas of how i want a story to pan out, but if the story just so happens to take me elsewhere in a spur of the moment manner, i’m all for it!

shameless chaotic writer here👋🏼

if you hate your draft, just pretend it’s a collaboration with past you.

personally, unless i absolutely have tears in my eyes, stain the pages and have a full blown miserable crisis just like my character, I don't consider the scene to be sad.

That makes me feel a bit better about what I write, because its not *good writing* in any way. Its on-the-nose sometimes, a bit simplistic, too feel-y, and filled with dramatized character emotions. But people tell me, they felt so much while reading it, they cried, or laughed too hard, almost teared up, felt personally seen, smiled, blushed, were annoyed- they FELT. And for me, that is a reason enough to continue writing. It might not be perfect, good or even professional at all, but as long as it touched someone, I have a reason to improve. To continue. To write until it DOES become good, subtle and clever. Even if it takes forever. It brings joy to a couple of others. It brings me JOY. And that is good enough for now, I think.

your writing doesn’t have to be perfect. it just has to make someone feel something.

Guys... I might be the villain, But if I think I'm the Main Character and that makes me a villain. And I think I'm the villain... What am I???😭😭

your villain doesn’t need a tragic backstory, but it helps if they at least think they’re the main character. delusional energy is key.