I Didn’t Plan For The Telenovela Flair Some Of The Characters/storylines In My Book Series Have, But

I've seen a lot of posts about the stress of not knowing what comes next when you're writing, but what about the opposite? What about when everything goes exactly to plan, and you're finally forced to face it?

Not knowing what comes next is a few hours/days of brainstorming before figuring out something cool

Knowing is "I've been planning this for literal years, but now that I have to actually type 'he's dead' I feel like I'm choking on my own spine"

...and those are two very different kinds of stress

every time a man declares their hatred for taylor swift, it only makes me love her ten times harder. like i can literally feel the love i have for her growing stronger by the second, until i’ve reached full taylor-swift-loving potential

Me on tumblr.

as discouraging as it can be writing to an audience of zero, i’m so locked in atp, idec anymore😭 delusion is my feul

i LOVE my characters and the little universe i created in my head sm, each of their books WILL be written and finished even if i’m the only one who knows of their existence!

i feel like i not only owe it to myself to see it through, but to my characters and their stories. they’re like my children, i can’t just abandon them because no one else is seeing their potential like i do?????

what kind of mother would that make me

sometimes i wish it didn’t take me so long to rediscover my love for writing. it’s something i LOVED as a kid. i loved books and was so mesmerized by the fictional world. then that love got lost as i grew older and i only just started rediscovering it almost two years ago.

can’t help but wonder how much closer i’d be to my writing dreams had i rediscovered my love for it sooner or never lost it to begin with.

They hate Rachel Zegler for being confident and unserious as a woman tbh. Only male actors are allowed to be flippant and disparaging about their projects - a female actor has to shower any film she's in with praise and admiration lest she come across as an ungrateful untalented bitch 🙄🙄🙄 everybody LOVED robert Pattinson for chatting shit about the twilight saga at all hours. But when Rachel doss it it's suddenly a problem. MISOGYNYYY

dreams are crazy because why did i just dream of my ex jumping off a building in front of me literally traumatizing me and now i’m thinking of him while he’s probably drunk, partying, and fucking some other girl for cinco de mayo……..

happy cinco de mayo!!!!🩷

anyone else have to remind themselves from time to time that they’re in charge of their characters and the plot line? meaning you can quite literally make them do *whatever* you want?

idk why i tend to forget that sometimes. i’ll often find myself pondering certain ideas i get and think to myself “hm, no. i couldn’t possibly do that.”

when i quite literally can???

like i just had the craziest storyline idea for three of my characters and thought to myself “no, i can’t do that. that’s too big of a game changer.”

the thing is, i could do it. and i probably will😭 god this is too much fun. i feel like a mad scientist who’s been given too much power

“She stands out in a way no rambunctious crowd or stuffy room could hold back.

She is the room.

She’s the diamond chandelier people awe at.”