Tw Restrictive Ed - Blog Posts

7.06.2024

I got my period 🥲👍

(Being AFAB sucks)

Anyway I only had coffee in the morning again. I'm starting to get used to skipping breakfast.

At around 12AM I went out and got a haircut (super happy with it)

A little bit later I had some pearl barley with a lot of seasoning (it made it taste super spicy but that's fine, I like my food super seasoned)

Oh, I also finished the bag!

Later that day I went ahead and started making another one in different colors. I can give you guys my Vinted username if anyone is interested in purchasing something like this from me.

Then me and my mom went to the mall. Along with some yarn and food for my rat, I got some drinks and my favorite guilt free bars

(Haven't tried this flavor yet)

As a snack, I had an energy drink and some konjac jelly (peach flavor, my fav)

Around 8PM I had dinner: two boiled eggs with generous amount of salt (cuz I physically cannot eat eggs without salt), some toasted bread and grapes

Calorie-wise it was my biggest meal but it was also super good and filling <33

My total was: 614kcal

(please do not try to repeat what I'm going here, it's very unhealthy, I'm not trying to promote ED to anyone in any way, I'm just showing you guys what I happened to eat today and that's literally it)

Ok but why is baby food so good

Losing weight so that when I wear baggy clothing and someone calls me fat, instead of crying about the fact that they are correct, I can lift my shirt up and show them what a pile of bones I am and prove them wrong.

If you got some workouts/workout routines that DON'T grow your obliques and make your waist and whole body appear thinner, drop them in the comments. Please. Or if you can't comment, dm me. 🎀

I feel my stomach growling :3

what I eat in a day

125g raspberries - 54 cals

369g green apple - 192 cals

350g boiled broccoli - 95 cals

exercise: -120 cals

net worth: 220 cals

All my mother and aunt talk about are their diets and how little/ healthy they eat.

10/10 trigger

thinking back to when I was underweight 💕

can‘t wait to be there again

I love that I can burn some extra calories bc of wounds healing

Just relapsed to distract myself from eating and the high is hitting HARD

Okay being super vulnerable by sharing this but this is my weight loss so far. I’m 5’4” and this is from 208.4 to my current weigh in of 152.8

I’m not where I want to be yet but I’ve made so much progress.

**Edit: the pictures in the purple were taken 4/22/22 and the pictures in the orange were taken 9/18/23 so this is well over a year. I was also postpartum

Until I reach my next weight goal I am going to only eat the amount of calories that I burn. I weighed in this morning so I will post daily weigh ins until then and we’ll see how long it takes

Next goal is 148.4

9/10: 160.0

9/11: 157.4

9/12: 154.6 & I got my period today 🙄

9/13: 154.6

9/14: 154.0

9/15: 153.4

9/16: 152.8

9/17: 152.6

9/18: 152.4

9/19: 151.9

9/20: 151.2

9/21: 151.2 😠

Can anyone suggest the best vitamins to take when you are fasting?

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER

I decided that I am kot gonna date things lmao. Kinda feeling mentay frustrated, so I hoped a break would make it better. It, in fact, did not.

I am in one discord server and people are really really nice, but I feel like I abandoned that server and I just dunno. I'd like a community where I can ramble about my silly things and people motivate eachother to push through things. Don't get me wrong, like I said they are really nice, motivating and everything. I just feel like I didn't connect much, but that can be just me.

Anyhow, a gaming-ana server is what I wanna make. For sillies that are like me idk. I might just need more friends lmaoo.

Also I have been fasting for two days now but my period just decided to come, so ugh. Fortunately whenever it happens I don't feel much hunger, so I can just fast and be happy. I am planning on going til saturday because I am meeting up with a friend that day and we already made plans to visit a café. Im sure he will make a suggestion to eat something somewhere too.

So yes yippee. That is for this update. I might restart the logging.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 11

Broke my 60 hour fast with some tuna today. (To be honest I don't remember what exactly I wanted to note down, because I am writing this on the 13th so im sorry)

I really want to restrain myself from snacking on things while I cook and/or bake, because I ate so many seedless cherries, what wouldn't be a problem, but they were kept in a sugary water that preserves the cherries for longer and ugh. I don't even know how I should estimate that.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Tuna with tomatoes - 157 cal

➅ Shrimp chips 13g - 45 cal

➀ Cinnamon roll - 199 cal

➃ Choco-coconut balls - 431 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 832 cal

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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 281 cal

Someone please keep me in check when I am fasting

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 10

I started my red days today and feel really poopie right now. Fortunately we have strong medicine for cramps at home so I will live. I fasted down the weight I put in during the weekend but now I have a feeling that it may or may not have been because of the approach of my period. It doesn't really matter.

Been craving garlic cream soup for a while now, but since its a cream soup I'm sure it's full of unnecessary calories that I don't need rn. Plus I would be too lazy to cook it so im better off fasting.

My sister asked me if I wanted to try her lavender green tea she bought and I was stupid enought to put some sugar substitute (0 cal) and a bit of lemon juice in it, even though I am used to drink plain tea.

Also I have been thinking that I should start working out but I really hate the feeling of sweat on my body, so I'm gonna look for something that is not too tiring for the mornings and not too time consuming.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Lavender green tea 450ml - 0 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 0 cal

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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 281 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 2.

I ate only this morning and fasted the whole day. Tomorrow is another sucky one because I accompany mom to her work place then go to school so she will ask me to bring something and knowing myself I will eat it probably, but let's hope for the best!

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➁ Apples (211g) - 110 cal

➀ Black coffee with ice - 0 cal

➀ Tuna-egg-mayo sandwich - 280** cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0cal

Water - 3l/2l

Full - 390** cal

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Steps - 8510/10000 - 346 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 346 cal

*edit - math is not my strong suit and i added the tomorrow's sandwich's stats too...

**edit 2 - I forgot that I need to count in percentage when I multiply (my last math lesson was 2 years ago)