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i wanna get rid of this body, this prison that holds me, that binds me. So I can be with you forever and ever, my love for you transcends time, age and reality so let my soul transcend too...Our souls are tied together so let me cut myself free so I can be with you forever and always.. allow me to be at the purest state I can be so I can love you in the way I was meant to.

Take me in the night and never let me go ever again

i can live through one thousand lifetimes and I would still want you in all of them

every little thing reminds me of you, the warm sun that lights the day, the simple pleasure of a afternoon nap, the taste of fresh and crisp bread, the faint but pleasant scent of a rose, but you are more wonderful than all of those things. You are more to me than anything else I ever knew or will know, you are the highest in my world and in my heart. And loving you is the most beautiful thing I could ever do.

you smell like cigarettes, wine, roses and love!

break my legs, put cigarettes to my flesh, bite me until I'm cover in wounds, paint Me black and blue, kick me, hit me, pull my hair, slap me, kill me too if you desire to, As long as it's you I'm fine with it, I love you so much my dear. Abuse me as you please, as long as I have your love and attention I will allow it.

Oh love is the death of me, I'm utterly obsessed with it and will spend all of eternity chasing after it. You know, I wasn't always like this. It's rather sad I became like this, so devoted to love to the point it drove me mad. I just wanted love for so long it drove me to the point of no return, it just was a longing, it was only a harmless feeling at first but the longer it went on the more it ate me alive until it turned me into what I am today. I only have the sincerest apologies to the people I've focused on, I never think, only focus on my own selfish ever consuming feelings. I only hope to get better, for my love to stop being like this and go back to it being the innocent thing that was, But it never will be. I would hope for forgiveness but I know I do not deserve it. May God strike me and help those who are unfortunately enough to be dear to me

Greetings and Merry Christmas to all you wondrous folks! I wish everyone in the Yan community a marvelous holiday and a wonderful new Year with their darlings!

"And if I’m a monster possessed to mangle You’re the only dancer I don’t wanna strangle"

-we will commit wolf murder

Some folks say being unhealthy obsessed with a person and or idea is bad but I'm quite literally only a lad, ok? I'm only a lad

i wanna be a doll for you, a perfect little thing fit to be your companion. But we both know I am little more than a jester at the end of the day, something playing at class and grace. A fool who was born to be mocked and a clown who wishes to amuse you. I was born a fool and will die a fool but please let me be your fool. Every king needs a jester so please let me be yours

Call me whenever you please, lapdog, errand boy, butler, your dog, your servant, your little prince, your toy, your dearest punching bag. It doesn't matter. As long as you are looking at me and giving me your love and attention I can be whatever you want.

BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME

let me be your servant, let me pour your drink as you stroke my head. Let me feel useful to you, please I beg of you. But oh god don't just see me as just a servant and nothing more, let what I do be the labor of love that it is. That other fool couldn't see my actions for what they were, but I know you my love will see my efforts and reward them accordingly

Hello can i request Yandere ex crush x oblivious reader? :D

So the reader is hv ex crush which is the yandere back in middle school, back then reader was confessed to yandere but getting rejected harshly, the reader silently like him so the yandere not expect reader to like him because even thought theyre a classmate they're not very close and reader is kind of ignorant and oblivious person, finally when theyre in highschool they're met again but this time they're getting more closer than in middle school because reader approach first as a friend, but the yandere accidentally catch a feelings and it turn into obssesion, he start to stalk, taking photo of reader silently, and finally reader felt something wrong with him and decided to make a bound betweem reader and him, finally i let you to continue with your own imagination dear author ^_^ thankyou i h ope you understand T_T

Okay, I hope you like it :D By the way, I apologize for not having published, I was busy with projects and exams, I have a declaration contest coming up soon, wish me luck please 😭

YANDERE EX CRUSH X OBLIVIOUS READER

You and him had met in high school, you were classmates, of course you didn't get along much, but secretly. You liked him a lot.

Back then, you were more innocent and naive than now, so it was easy to fall in love with your serious and quiet classmate, who didn't even notice you.

You sent him anonymous letters, sweets, small gifts, anything tender that could make his heart melt <3

But he coldly just kept them or threw them away.

He didn't imagine that you were in love with him, I mean, if we're not friends, why are you attracted to him?

You didn't even know, it was like that

So one day you took courage and you cited it in a park near the school.

Mistake

You were excited to see him arrive, there was hope in you that your love would be reciprocated.

But it was the opposite...

"So... I mean... I like you, you seem interesting and cute and..."

"I see where you're going, sorry, I'm not interested."

He said without even looking you in the eyes and leaving.

Needless to say, you felt bad and cried, your first confession and your first rejection.

Normal, they were practically two children, so you got over it and forgot.

But now...

The two had met again at school :D

Needless to say, it was difficult for you to recognize him, you were not good at remembering, and you were no longer classmates, you were in different classes, but you were happy to see him again, it made you nostalgic to remember him.

But...

He didn't feel anything when he saw you again, he believed, he just smiled when he remembered what you were like when you were in high school and you liked him.

The days passed and they accidentally found themselves on the way home.

You smiled when you saw him and decided to talk to him again.

"Mmmm, hey, do you remember me? :)"

He simply turned around saying "Of course, how could I not remember the girl who harassed me?"

"Hey, that's not true, I just liked you," you said, laughing.

"That's why," he smiled and squeezed your cheek.

¿To like is to harass?

From there they became friends, in fact, it was nice that they began to be more together, as friends.

But he started to get confused, he doesn't know why when he sees you he feels so happy, so strange and he feels butterflies.

"It's just honey, he thought naively.

But suddenly he remembered how much he missed a girl being as sweet to him as you had been a long time ago and did not know how to take advantage

Your tender details, in his mind, maybe you still had feelings for him, that is, you've known him longer than anyone else, if you met again, it's for a reason!

Unknowingly, he started laying you down.

He didn't let you go home alone any day.

"Hey, you don't need to come with me every day, I'm fine."

"I do it because you are a very stupid girl, something could happen to you"

HE ONLY WANTS TO SEE YOU WALK IN THE PRETTY WAY YOU DO

He started taking photos of you, consensual and distracted.

"Hey, smile more, please, you don't see such a strange girl every day" he said in a mocking tone while he took a photo of you.

"Shut up, or I'll hit you," you said with a frown.

A blow from you would be like an angel's kiss.

Maybe your things started to get lost, photographs with friends, drawings, your strawberry lipstick.

"Mmm, I'm sure I forgot them somewhere, no way," you thought in disbelief.

"Is that what your lips taste like?" He said in his room while smelling the lipstick and looking at your photo.

"I love her too much " He said sighing with love for you.

At one point, I already had his room upholstered with your cute image, careless, smiling, in pajamas, with your pets, with him <3

One day you were closer to a friend of yours, more than usual.

So he decided to hit him in an abandoned lot, to make it clear that he will stay away from you:>

You were surprised when all your friends walked away from you, except for him.

Then you began to doubt, he had so much preference for you and he was so affectionate and teasing with you, that he was not normal, practically his days were based on you.

“Hey, we need to talk,” you said seriously.

"What's going on?" “He said distressedly.

"Uh, I just need to know, do you love me, I mean, as a friend, as something more?"

"¿What are you saying? Silly girl, of course I love you, like a friend, like the naive girl that you are, don't worry, I only care about you, others just don't care about you like I do." , just

You simply sighed and smiled giving him a hug.

He pulled you closer to his body and squeezed you.

"Someday, you will be only mine, I will make you forget everyone, in your mind it will be only me :3

Don't worry, he will make you love him as much as when you were younger, he loves you so strongly and devotedly that he would do anything for you, even things that are not good...

"Hey, I've been thinking about that... And I think the best thing would be for you and me to be more than friends, I mean, you're so pretty, I love you" he told you affectionately...

Regardless of your answer, he is prepared for anything, even if you reject him, he will make you be with him at all costs, you better accept or prepare for the sun of your days to be only him, because you are already the moon that illuminates their dark nights.

This song gets me so much . I do want to live in my beloved's skin and drain all their love to keep for myself , like a parasite — even if it's selfish of me to do . I want to be the only one causing their pain .

Strong urge to break my darling's bones so they can't go anywhere . Nobody else would be able to hurt their pretty body but me .

I wish humans were able to fuse . I want to become one with my beloved so bad — I want us to turn into a literal manifestation of our love .

The relationship should go both ways . You need to be obsessive and threaten my life if I dare step out of line , too . Keep me locked up because you're afraid of losing me .

To have a devotee that genuinely worships me and clings to my every word like it's gospel . . godly yan x devotee yan is so underrated

If only my beloved lived nearby me . . I could watch him so closely . I could check in his window to see if he's sleeping well and stalk closely behind him whenever he takes walks . I could keep him safe that way .

So , you'd understand if I beat you up and locked you inside our room , right ? Letting your eyes stray towards another man is a sin — surely you'll accept the consequences .

The idea of someone giving me a stuffed animal with a camera in it so they could watch me is actually making me giddy

Strong urge to lock my beloved inside our home with constant surveillance . Absolutely no contact with the outside world and no one else but me . Giving them such severe Stockholm Syndrome that the thought of leaving me would cause a panic .

The urge to cut my pretty boy's throat a little and taste his blood . . Feeling him squirm and hearing him whine underneath me . .

Need a boyfriend that'd burn his cigarettes into my skin . . Is that too much to ask . .

“ I don't mind if you get jealous ” But I'm the bad guy for wanting to bash your fucking brains in when you talk to someone else

If you really , truly loved me , you'd let me pluck those pretty eyes out so I could keep them in a jar . You'd let me make sure I'm the only one you're looking at .

Oh to watch a slasher film with my sweet boy and tell him how much I want him to be my victim ♡

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