The Rehabilitation Of Death - Blog Posts

A cute scene from @bamsara ‘s fanfic “The Rehabilitation of Death” or TROD :D

I love bremar and paazi let them live happily please

Well. The threatening display worked to quiet Lambert, just not in the way that was intended.

Scene doodle I have planned for The Rehabilitation of Death

Howdy! I just want to take a moment (or two…or three..yeah this is longer than I thought it would be) to talk about your characterization of Narinder in your TRoD fanfic, specifically his grievance over what he perceived the lamb to be and betrayel.

I like to think Narinder repeatedly calling Lambert a traitor (I think at least once a chapter actually lmaoo) over and over, is trying not so subtly to avoid thinking about the why behind the betrayel and the pain that comes with it. Especially since he'd already spent an eternity wondering about the previous betrayal of his siblings. How emotionally torturous it must feel to be in this cycle of rejection, from the people he depended on, even now from his own followers who don't recognize him. And then, when he and Lambert finally appear to be on the same page about something, Lambert goes and spares Leshy, reminding Narinder once again that his divine commands hold as much weight on the Lamb as they will decide to hold.

It isn't up to Narinder to decide how the lamb will act, as much as he wants to. It's one thing for Narinder to have people listening to him, but it's another to actually be heard, and after an eternity of silence during his imprisonment he's absolutely desperate for some form of control and impact. For someone to truly hear him. Which is a shame, because Lambert does, but Narinder cannot recognize it since they don't always give Narinder what he wants (since being a God is all about what you want), and instead are more interested in giving him what he needs.

I assume at this point, after being revived into a mortal form, he's actively given up on trying to understand why everyone just keeps "betraying/rejecting him" and would rather use his own inferences of their behavior as explanation, once again, for that feeling of control, since he's utterly mortified of hearing those words come from their mouths instead of his own (doesn't help that he can actually read minds either). He'd rather kill his siblings than hear the why (not saying the siblings were justified ofc, but understanding one's motivations is, y'know, important to effectively communicating with them in a way that's healthy) Despite needing to be heard, he's internalized that many won't bother listening unless he has control over them in some way, like he did before when he was powerful. When he mutilated his siblings, had Lambert create a cult in his name, being heard isn't just an emotional or mental aspect to his wellbeing, but is literally part of his power as well.

He was/is a God, he's used to followers prostrating themselves just to hear the time of day, giving their all to listen, hear, and follow him. It's why he struggles to separate the aspects that are ingrained in a follower, from those who are a friend. Unless they're also God he can't comprehend much of a difference, and expects them to be of the same or similar standing. He was friends with Lambert when he was Godly, yes, but he still saw himself as above Lambert, and expected them to lay down their life to him like a follower would. Yes, Narinder didn't want to cut them out of his own life in their death, but still expected them to just..die for him. He didn't ***just*** see Lambert as a friend, he saw them as a friend that was also his follower. An exceptional follower he loved, but not an exception. There was a power imbalance that Lambert now sees.

It's why Narinder's utterly baffled and offended, fearful even, at Lambert, someone he deemed as "traitorous", investing their time into still trying to talk to him..listen to him.. for virtually no gain…at his lowest point...when he himself is now "lesser".

Narinder tries so hard to not become invested in those he deems as "lesser" or "traitors" but its near fucking impossible, because like it or not, his desires and needs are so inherently mortal and genuine (desire for power, companionship, love, understanding, control, etc) that if he doesn't close himself off, he may have to face falling into the same pit of disappointment and failed expectations he fell in with Lambert/his siblings once again. So he doesn't, and hides away in his shack until Lambert comes knocking.

And now, as the cherry on top of this emotionally constipated bundle of angsty cat woes, he has to live and breathe as the very thing he deemed as "lesser". Being forced to invest in these mortal needs, now that they're a necessary component to his survival. This is also why I believe he goes on these little crusades with Lambert in the first place as well. Not only because they return to him a sense of routine and normalcy (also pining, coughocoughghhrbogh who said that?), but also because it allows Narinder to forget about investing in his own wellbeing for a while.

He was a God, he didn't have to go through the work it took to just do your laundry, eat, brush your teeth, or take care of yourself since he never had to. The thrill of adventure and battle, the adrenaline rush of near-death experiences, can't hold a candle to the mundanity of work. So when he's not crusading, he just..sleeps..wanders around..the fact he's not socially accepted by his own followers doesn't encourage him either. I mean fuck, he such a complete wreck after Lambert spared Leshy, he crusaded and neglected his health for so long he passed out.

His life is all work now, investing in himself, in others, being forced to have his ego get knocked down a few pegs, and care again despite how much it hurts. None of these things are "given", Lambert's love is not just given (as in, blindly follow) and that's what I believe will be an eventual "eureka" moment for him.

Living is work, but it's worth working for

He ain't hot shit anymore, but that's ok.

Anyway, sorry for the long-winded ramble this was all actually just a very roundabout and ineffective ploy for me to talk about how I relate the song "Don't Speak" by No Doubt, to your Narinder's character. Happy belated New Year, hope you're doing well. :]

LKSDHGKLSDHGD HELLO. This is such a well articulated analyzation of Narinder holy moly, I hope you don't mind me answering this with not much to add on because WOW I'm really vibing with your takes on him and I wanted the world to read this too slkdghlksdhgs. I have a lot of my own takes on Narinder and how he'll progress to be as the story comes along, and eventaully some of this will be talked about in TROD either with the lamb and/or with other characters, particularly Ratau, as he comes to an understanding that others are understanding.

I have not had coffee yet this morning but I could go on for a day and a half about Narinder being used to getting what he wants as a god and the entire process of how actaully lonley and isolating it can be to be continously pedastaled and worshipped verses being on equal, human level with other beings and how long it takes for him to realize that.

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR

your adopted sons are about to rat you out

whoops i meant to put this in the last post

Of the friendships Narinder makes out of imprisonment, I'd like to think he visits Chemach while she's in her chains (and Kuudai and Clauneck) occasionally to talk about Old God stuff

Concept doodles for the after-Kallamar-battle scene in Trod that I've been rotating in my mind for almost a year, that go with the past doodles I've made

The Lamb has a breakdown outside what this comic shows, Narinder gets closer to the truth, and they both become closer as a consequence.

little dreaming boy

Narilamb dancing doodles I made on art streams this last week, mainly trying to get the motion in mind for the Anchordeep Ballroom scene (its a lot easier writing motion and movement when you have a visual reference)

Also ngl I keep listening to 'Forbidden Friendship' from HTTYD for this scene because the build up from ' mock dance invitation' to 'timidly testing the waters' to 'actually having tons of fun dancing' to 'climatic pause after the dip + tension' fits REALLY well

also little bonus:

rough doodled scene for Trod in the future maybe :P

Well. The threatening display worked to quiet Lambert, just not in the way that was intended.

Scene doodle I have planned for The Rehabilitation of Death

"You are like the sun"

-trod!Narinder

woe, narilamb be upon ye 🫴🏽

posting this to pretend that i don't have several WIP on my ipad begging to be finished (they will never be)

close ups

every time that one fox kid in TROD say “the lamb looks sad” ,,,,,

[ SPOILERS Of COTL The rehabilitation of death by @bamsara ]

(cw: gore, blood, possibly eye strain)

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tfw you remember something that makes you question your actions ,emotions and the hatefulness you have towards your usurper (who's apparently DIDNT usurp you?!?) and realize how misplaced they are. 🤡 (currently holding my head <3)

I adore those two bozos :)

Requirements for marriage.

Rough comic I made quite a while ago for chapter 23 of Trod. They are both dumb

Kkhh

Truly, food for soul.

Twitch chat voted for 'jealous Lamb' in last night's art stream thus this comic

You gotta love the motive a keeping your first follower around and building lore around it - my first ever was a dog I think.

Some doodles of Finor and Lambert, also a little explanation as to why Finor is an elder despite having a Golden Skull Necklace. She took it off for a few decades because elders don't have to work lmao

Stuff like this inspires me to write more- I really enjoy the dynamic of Fox and Narinder being explored, for some reason xD

A hit from Bamsara, like many before.

im cleaning out my desktop today, so here comes a lot of older artwork/comics i made months ago in art streams for trod stuff

anyway The Fox underestimates Narinder's hatred to play by other people's rules

This made me laugh really hard

made this shitpost months ago and forgot about it

early trod chapters be like

Tried to draw that really neat part with Kudaai from The Rehabilitation of Death by Bamsara 'cause it's eating my braaain.

alright time to post/queue up all the doodles from the last two months

kallamar beloved you were the worst fight outside of narinder's for me to face and im making the au reflect that. squid boy revenge

So cool!!!!

I always loved how @bamsara changes the backround of commic pannels and it never feels out if place when the collor changes

some out-of-order & outta context doodle comics for trod au I found hiding in my desktop files

AHHHH SO CUTE!!!

Nose touch.

Fuqn love this version of Nari…I need to read the actual au 😭

Older TROD stuff/answered ask and doodles for future chapter whatnot that I honestly cannot remember if I've already posted it but throwing here just in case

More doodles incoming ya know ya know

POV: you are a spy, and this Lamb can no longer read minds...but they don't need to when the Devil can, whispering in their ear

I think about this comic often lol

your adopted sons are about to rat you out

I need a Nari when aunt flow comes through…..I wanna be held 🥺

this started out as just a doodle of them cuddling

i have so many dream/nightmare related comic scenes I havent posted. anyway hold this real quick

“Damned to the end from the start… we can’t really help who we are.”

TROD fanart for @bamsara :)

Some fanart for bad end TROD AU by @bamsara :)

Someone said this in their twitch chat and I havent been able to stop thinking about it omg (THANK YOU WHOEVER U ARE <33)