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Stop. Just...Stop.
No, seriously. This stupid drama has to stop quickly.
I suppose you all have heard about the "Scott Cawthon Drama"....
So, I will get straight to the point.
The ones criticising him are fr****** hypocrites.
Let me explain:
- According to them, Scott is anti-LGBTQ, transphobic....
- He voted for Trump because he's against minorities (or something like that)
I'm sure there is more, but I only take the more important.
Soooooo.......First:
- His donations for charity (LGBTQ, Children...) are nothing?
- Yes, he's a Republican. But, he had voted for Democrats, and minorities in the past.
- He's very aware of the huge LGBTQ community inside the Fnaf fanbase, and doesn't offend them. Not a single time.
- He's a troll. A big one. And is always playful with his fanbase, never has he insulted or threatened someone.
- He's honest, and has apologised officially on Reddit
- He's trying to do the right thing
- He's a f****** HUMAN
Seriously, guys! He's a human, like us!
He can made some mistakes! And, you can NOT hate a man because of ONE f****** action!
We can not agree with his opinions, but let him alone d*****.
He's only trying to do the right thing for the sake of his country!
Have you just realized the fact that some of us have THREATENED his family?! His wife is pregnant for God's sake! And she can't sleep anymore because of these a*******!
Why do humanity have to be such a extremist?! Now, we can't speak like we want because we're gonna "offend" someone else.
For f***'s sake, we're humans! We can't please everyone! Else, we would be robots!
You can not agree with me, and I don't care. You have your opinions, I have mines. That's what make humanity special and beautiful.
We're all beings with our own world and mind. Some are bad, others are good or balanced. But, don't forget that:
We're not perfect.
We're guilty of our extremist nature/behaviour.
And, for me Scott is only guilty of:
- doing his duty as a citizen
- having his own opinions
- trying to do the best for his country, sometimes not following his political opinions (Has voted for Democrats even if he's a Republican)
And....He's also a victim of his popularity. Because, if he wasn't the one who created Fnaf and an activist with all his donations for charity...Nobody would care less.
So, don't try to tell me he's an a****** because he's not. And all the ones who are angry against him, try to look at your neighbouring. Maybe there's some "a*******" inside your community, too.
It's not because someone is anti-LGBTQ or Republican, that he's/she's a bad person. And inversely.
You can talk, or rage all you want, but it doesn't change the fact that you're hypocrites. And don't react like that, take time to think about the situation and others peoples.
We're not alone on this Earth, we're one HUGE community with different opinions, dreams, and personalities.
So please....For the Skies' sake. Think about it, and don't take your anger on a man with a big heart only trying to do the right thing for his country. If you're not glad with the result: demonstrate, vote...I don't know!
*sigh*....I hope I could make some peoples think and maybe, change their minds. Because, this is so unfair for everyone! And, I'm not only talking about the Fnaf community, but everyone concerned.
Sorry if I offended someone, it was not my goal. I just want this mess to stop. And let innocent people out of this. They did nothing wrong.
Sincerely yours,
Yami_no_Kurama
"oh but your favorite shows are going to be delayed by the strikes" my favorite shows consistently get cancelled after 2 excellent seasons bc of the exploitive corporate greed that these strikes are fighting against
I have the victorious strategy for you chuds, but it requires complete muttization in society to extreme, we’re negative el monstro race. Everyone has to be mutt to horrible degree but especially potent indian genes need to increadr and african genes. The only way to win, is indeed to destroy aryan dream. I am sorry but this is the way, my brother.
I recently saw a post from an asexual talking about how sex obsessed our society is and I am allo myself so I obviously don't know how it is from a perspective of someone who feels no sexual attraction. I have sexual trauma however so I tend to be a bit more sensitive towards sexual adds or nudes in media.
So I saw this advertisement in my city that was displayed on electronic screens that kinda scroll through two or three different ads, which meant the ad wasn't always showing but would rather kinda pop up. And this ad was just seriously a grown man completely naked with only a surgical mask covering up his penis.
I have no clue what this advertisement tried to sell/promote but when ever I encountered it, it would give me a fucking shock to my system because I was traumatized from being flashed by men without my consent for years.
It's a mystery to me how people can be opposed to queer media that might show them interact romantically or with kissing and cry out about how this promotion of same sex attraction is damaging kids with these over sexual things like gay marriage! Behaving like our media doesn't show half naked men and women constantly in advertisement and similar things to kids amd everyone else.
Sex is a huge part of our culture but it is handled in the most confusing way I can imagine. It's being used to sell products to us, however talking about it is not okay? There is so much double standard and paradox rules that create this hostile environment against anything or anyone who doesn't exactly do what the rules tell you to (ergo shut about your own sex live but endure any and all sexual media we promote to you because we know what you like better than you)
Asexual people, queer people, traumatized people and even anyone who likes things considered not "normal" or "the norm" is harmed by this systematically!!!!!
Sex isn't something bad, not wanting sex isn't something bad either!!!!!
Let people live their lives, identities and preferences however they want!!!!
Let's work towards a society in which people aren't constantly bombarded with a specific idea of what sex and anything surrounding it has to look like but rather are presented with a variety of diverse representation that they can consume.
I don’t tend to post serious stuff but the us election has made me very very worried, I’m genuinely scared for the well being of myself, being multiracial and part of the LGBT2S+ community. I beg anyone who can to vote while you can or hope this will not end in disaster.
vote blue 💙
Hi 👋, My name is Mohammad, and I’m reaching out in a moment of desperate need. I’m a father of three young children living in Gaza, and we are caught in the midst of a catastrophic war. Our home is no longer a safe haven, and the future here seems increasingly uncertain. 💔
I’ve launched a fundraising campaign with the goal of raising $40,000 to relocate my family to a safer place where my children can grow up in peace and have a chance at a brighter future. 🕊️🇵🇸
Unfortunately, my previous fundraising efforts were abruptly halted when my account was terminated without explanation. However, I remain determined to keep fighting for my family’s safety and well-being. 🫶
If you could take a moment to read our story, consider donating, or simply share our campaign with others, it would make an incredible difference. Every act of kindness, no matter how small, brings us one step closer to safety and a new beginning. 🙏
Thank you for your time, compassion, and support. ❤
https://gofund.me/fd1faea2 🔗
GO DONATE! PLEASE!
POSTING THIS AGAIN!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE CAREFUL OUT THERE!!!
Tw: The use of slurs.
Hi, I’m Oli a 16 year old Non-binary Lesbian, and I just really need the apologize for the use of the phrase “fruity”. Unfortunately the post is deleted now, but it was about my opinion on the new DBD Killer, The Trickster. In the beginning of my statement I called him a “Fruity Motherfucker”. When I typed that out, I was not thinking of it as a malicious thing, I was doing it in a joking way, I can see how it could be taken out of context and I’m really sorry that it did.
When I typed that phrase out, I was under the impression that it was okay to say, as a bunch of people in my friend group describe me as fruity all the time. And I know now that it’s just not okay. The last thing I wanted to do on this blog was hurt peoples feelings, the last thing I wanted to do was offend people that are in the same community as me. It was a case of me being misinformed and Im really, really sorry.
Please just understand I did not have any ill intentions when I wrote that. I love each and every one of you, hopefully this clears things up. I understand I was in the wrong the whole time, I really do.
-Oli
I still can't believe some people don't realize this
Repost this anywhere
I won't be posting anything about palestine anymore due to mental issues I've been facing recently (regarding the war, post-trauma from 2014, family I've lost, etc...)
I also wish to not be tagged in any other gofundme's/news about Palestine since it would trigger my PTSD and I wish to be left alone to have some space to cope with my surroundings.
As for the gofundme of my family, it's being managed by my parents and older brother (as it always has been). My parents have chosen for me not to be included for the sake of my mental health. Therefore, I have no control over it. If you have any questions, feel free to contact them, not me. As my parents say: "I'm still a kid, this isn't my responsibility, and it shouldn't really be."
As selfish as it sounds, sometimes it's important to help yourself before helping others. Cause if you can't handle your own problems, you won't be able to handle the ones of others (and you won't be in much use and instead cause more stress for yourself, from what I've learned).
I want to get back to what I used to post on the account (mainly art and other fun stuff) and find my 'will to live' again, a way to cope with everything. Recently, I couldn't draw due to the pressure, and when I did, it wasn't as enjoyable as before. I wanna find that joy again. I'm sorry once more for saying this. I want to help, but I know I do not have much power. But I don't want to give up, neither should you, neither should we all in this matter.
Thank you all for understanding, and I'm sorry for not being in state to help, as much as I do want to.
Sincerely,
Schketbook
Aka R.S.
Dear Supporter,
I hope this message finds you and your family in good health. My name is Eman Zaqout from Gaza. I am reaching you out to seek your urgent help in spreading the word about our fundraiser. I lost both my home and my job due to the ongoing genocide in Gaza and we are facing catastrophic living conditions. 💔
I kindly ask you to visit my campaign. Your support, whether through donating or sharing, will help us reach more people who can make a difference. Thank you for your continued support for the Palestinian cause. Your dedication brings us closer to freedom. 🙏🕊
Note: Verified by several people as 90-ghost and aces-and-angels. ☑
I’m unsure exactly how to help, so I’m just spreading the word as suggested.
The American government is still giving explosives and weaponry to the terrorists killing civilians, destroying homes, forcing people to leave behind pets and children, etc.
There are many protests and petitions going around in hopes of stopping the constant flow of destructive weapons, we can only hope that these people can get to safety before they’re killed.
PREACH!!
As an AFAB (still identify on the feminine part of the gender spectrum) person who got SA’d on multiple different occasions (5, 7, and 11 years old for the cases where I or the perpetrator weren’t fully clothed, there were other occasions though, but they didn’t really affect me as much) And tend to fear falling in love with people, even if I trust them: Being pregnant is scary in any case, whether you want to keep the pregnancy or not, it’s terrifying.
To any ‘pro lifers’ (more so pro-birth) or people who are confused or uneducated about pregnancy and birth:
•Pregnancy puts the person’s life at risk, and permanently affects the body even after the baby is born.
•non viable pregnancies can be mentally and physically devastating for people involved, and should be aborted for the pregnant person’s safety.
•Non viable pregnancies include: if a newborn is guaranteed to die after birth, stillborns, fetuses with severe defects, the pregnant person definitely not going to survive giving birth (such as children that are pregnant, people with severe health issues, some intersex and trans people, etc), and more
•if abortion was only allowed if the pregnancy was caused by SA/R@pe, many people who were SA’d/R@ped wouldn’t be able to get abortions anyway, because most SA/R@pe cases don’t get reported, aren’t brought to court, are deemed false by court, etc.
•There is a difference between life and personhood. Plants are alive, but don’t have personhood. A human corpse isn’t alive, but has personhood. A fetus is technically alive, but isn’t a person.
•if you think abortion is murder because a fetus has life, then farming is murder, picking mushrooms or roots is murder, taking antibiotics and getting vaccinated would be murder because bacteria and viruses are alive.
•Abortion is healthcare. An established life of a person is more important than a fetus with no personhood or consciousness.
Have some memes for your travels:
the "I believe in abortion only in extreme situations" people (especially women) truly baffle me because I genuinely consider "a human has another human growing inside of them and does not want to" to be a very extreme situation. to me that feels so deeply like an extreme emergency situation. I know this has been said before but it's incredible to me that this does not feel innately horrifying and "extreme" to everyone.
People, please be careful. There are also people tracking children and people and putting bids on them based on their profile pictures on whatsapp, tracking and kidnapping them. Especially young children, so please be cautious, especially parents who have their children as their profile pictures.
Please pass this on to everyone so that they are aware of the danger. I don’t how it is all around the world but I know it can’t just be here so please please spread the word. Thank you.
Since yesterday, I actually decided to look into intrusive thoughts and read about them because as of recently I started to realize I do in fact have intrusive thoughts.
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To give some info, I’ve been undiagnosed for all my life, not because I was tested negative but because I never actually went to the doctor to get diagnosed. And let’s just say I had the hispanic childhood so yea I definitely have a lot of things undiagnosed.
And for the longest time, I tried not to label myself as anything because I thought it was very harmful to just say ‘I have this mental illness’ when I’ve never truly been diagnosed. I thought I would just look like I’m being a pick-me for the longest time.
But since then, I found out that being undiagnosed is completely understandable. And that I know me better then anyone and I’m allowed to analyze myself.
I’ve been seeing a lot of videos on my feed pointing out many of my symptoms and signs that I may have ADHD or more. And hilariously so, most of my friends, who either have been diagnosed with ADHD, Anxiety, and Autism, have pointed out how I can very much possibly be undiagnosed.
I’m more certain I have undiagnosed Anxiety and ADHD while I’m still unsure about Autism but I need to look more into that.
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Which now brings me to this topic that feels like a nail in the coffin, my unwanted intrusive thoughts.
Obviously I’ve heard of that word due to funny and serious tiktoks but I now found out that is exactly what I’ve been experiencing throughout my WHOLE LIFE. Down to elementary school. And sadly it has only gotten worse as I become a teen.
Whenever I have intrusive thoughts, I always feel disgusted, repulsed, and sickened by the thought of it. I had to live with the guilt that this was me being a sick-minded person and thinking these things were my fault. That it was me being a dirty-minded son of a bitch thinking these things as I constantly tried to push them back.
That was until I found out this was never the case. When I read that article about what intrusive thoughts were and what they weren’t. I cried, I cried in relief and bliss that it was never my fault.
I started looking more into Tiktoks and found that finally being reassured helped me feel so much better. I really needed to know that this was never some fucked up unconscious desires or truth about me but very much the opposite.
I really wanted to talk about this because it had made me feel so much better and just watching those tiktoks make me feel like I wasn’t alone and I cried again.
I know really feel the urge to just have Jonathan reassuring me about my unwanted intrusive thoughts lol.
Vent ends here on a happier note :)
TW: NSFW If you see the user @/BlazerAjax220 on any site, avoid him at all costs and block him.
He has done many disgusting things, including nsfw roleplays with me when I was 16, even though he was 19 at the time
"wow i never would have guessed you're autistic" thanks! i traumatized myself throughout my developmental years learning maladaptive masking skills that have harmed me body and soul
THIS IS FOR EVERY ADULT WHO THINKS ABOUT THIS! This is unacceptable! Adults should know better! THAT IS MY BESTIE! IDC IF THEY CHANGED THEIR GENDER OR ANYTHING I still care about them! Because of you adults out there or about to be hurting my friend’s feelings…they are now hurting themselves! Shame on you!! Thank you, for being the sibling of my friend and telling me this, very mature
I know I might not post alot but please. I AM not asking for money or any of that, this is something I'm saying about a minor being harmed by people who are close to being adults!
Welp, my used to be sister but now brother, @biblicallyaccuratedipperpines almost committed suicide because of the problem with @drifting-stars-mabel
Yes, that's right, this was libbworl but he changed his username. Now they go by he/they now.
I want to spread this out to the attention of others to say, that he has hurt himself for awhile and still is. And almost committed suicide!
I'm really mad at a bunch of people, so is my dad. Very pissed off at @dipperpinesrpblog Because your attitude sick and not in the good way. Fuck you!
@kirbytimelma0 also threatened him to kill himself
I also know @msnihilist has helped
I'd really appreciate it if anyone out there will take the post down, please.
reblog this post, anything to help my brother from committing suicide people! She is not a bad person! She never shipped Mabill, she doesn't ship proships or anything like that!
All of you should think about yourself and maybe think this is a real person behind the account, me aswell. Do not hate!
Please do so, he's not a bad person!
@thestrangelyalwaysconfused @eliqwerty-1206 @cartoon-cat7241 @river-billcipherfan @candyclazzyashton @the-love-giver all of her friends help! @pinetreethefinetree pa-lease...
This post is gonna get serious. I wanna talk about Tony's death in the MCU and how I was affect by it and my past.
Trigger warning: I'm gonna be talking about PTSD, death, depression, and overall a lot of heavy stuff. If this stuff bothers you, you should skip this post. I have plenty other posts that are more for humor or fanfiction.
Tony's death.
This rocked me to my core. I cried when he spoke his last words and how he ended his arc the way he did. I cried cause the character who brought me into the MCU had left it after all this time. I had cried for the character who had become so important to me, only to cry all over again when Steve decided to leave too. Both goodbyes that were from important parts of my Marvel experience were gone like that.
It was a perfect, tragic, ending for both characters. The pain and loss, to the end of their arcs showing how much they changed.
The thing is though, seeing Tony's death, and Steve's choice to leave, had me mentally and emotionally shut down the first time I watched those scenes. I had been lost unconsciously to the past, back to the moment that still haunts me today.
I have PTSD. And my trauma came from my grandfather passing away when I was four. It was traumatic, loud, messy, and lots of crying from my mother. The only person I had to call 'dad' was simply gone in mere seconds.
He past away in my mother's arms, and from the way my mom can remember he was also coughing blood. His lung cancer finally caught up to him.
When children are exposed to stimulation it is already so much for them, every experience being many things: an inconvenience being the end of the world, a new little fact being a huge joy, every experience is learning how the world is. But in terms of trauma? It's greater damage to the mind as a kid compared to an adult.
I had watched my grandfather pass away, got stuck in the loud chaos, and had been unable to process what just happened. I only knew that he wasn't coming back, and that answer only left me empty.
After this moment things changed a lot for me. It was made worst when my mother had to hospitalized for three days sometime after this event. This was another thing that had sent me into a deep form of hurt. I cried hard at my mother's disappearance. I thought I was being abandoned, left alone in a world I still can't understand today.
I had lost a parental figure in my life, thought I was being abandoned sometime later, and was unable to process anything. I only knew the facts, I couldn't do anything beyond that. Any emotions I should have been feeling wasn't there. I didn't feel anything. It was like I didn't know how anymore, I only could feel apathetic. Like I was shunning away the moment.
It was the start of my mental decline.
Tony became an important character for me as he was the hero who felt real, one I could find myself in the same sort of spot with regarding pain.
Every time I see a character I've grown so attached to die, I remember the first time it ever happened. Then I dissociate to cope with the trauma, emotions disappearing into numbness, and I can't watch anymore.
The pain of watching real tragic deaths or of fiction that I've come so attached to, it sends me into a twisted mess. It also happens with goodbyes. Seeing someone or something for the last time, never seeing them again, also sends me back. The feelings of loss and abandonment causing me to push things or people away.
When Tony died on screen I had been left numb, I had left the theater wanting nothing more than to curled up in a ball on my bed and sleep. Forgetting about the moment I watched him die.
I wouldn't get to fully process my trauma till this year. I wouldn't get to the moment of processing till now.
Tony's death, Steve leaving, and the pain left behind was too much for me to handle. Now though I can say that it was tragic but also a beautiful end to their respective arcs. I can't watch certain parts of the movies again for reasons, but I'm able to watch the movies again as I'm now moving forward. I can watch knowing that this time I can finally watch the series and accept each goodbye that happens. I can allow myself to process the emotions I feel freely, letting them come and simply be.
I write this post as a form of my own little therapy. A way of sharing my story to those who might need it and those who need to hear this:
You are not alone in your grief. You are not alone in your pain. Pain comes to everyone and it varies on the person how they respond to that pain. Depression, anxiety, PTSD, these are common disabilities that are found in a large percentage of people. I used to think nobody would understand, but overtime I realized that pain is universal.
When I began to heal I learned that it's okay to be vulnerable, to be weak. To allow yourself the chance to express the emotions held inside out. Feeling those emotions freely is what helped me move forward, but it may be different for you.
What Marvel has helped me to do is learn that it's okay to be human. We are a mess, but we learn together how to be better. Not everyone is nice, not everyone is mean. We are simply people. As we heal from trauma we see those around us differently, unable to go back to the mindset in the past. We can also see those who have similar mindsets to are own.
In conclusion: Tony's death hurt me and pushed hard at an old scar. The pain came and I allowed it to be. I learned to move forward, and learned from Marvel that all you can do is move forward. Tony's death had left the universe safe, Steve leaves behind a legacy and passed down his shield to Falcon. And I learn to come to terms of what happened years ago now.
I wanted to share this in hopes of those who need it see it. And I hope maybe that you, the person reading, have taken something from this post. A person who understands or possibly a new perspective on something.
I hope that you remember that you deserve to be loved, that you are not alone in pain or grief, and that you are amazing.
"it will get better" they told me, aged 11, when puberty really kicked in and felt extremely dysphoric about my body, but didn't know what it was yet, and also got bullied for not being truly either gender.
"it will get better" they told 13 year old me, now aware of what dysphoria was, but still suicidal because of it, and felt terrible for not being accepted as a real boy.
"it will get better" they told 15 year me, who just got sexually assaulted for being trans, as well as missing lots of school(and social development) for being constantly in the hospital to navigate the medical gatekeeping for being trans.
"it will get better" they told 16 year me, still freshly traumatized from being sexually assaulted, and now disabled due to medical abuse and neglect from doctors, as well as failing school due to said disability.
"it will get better" they told 17 year old me, who was getting abused at home, while going to school and working my ass off at a minimum wage job, trying to save whatever I could while also trying to sustain myself.
"it will get better" they told 18 year me, still being abused and barely graduating high school, while fighting with my mom to let me attend the college I want, while still not having fully recovered from being temporarily disabled.
"it will get better" they told 19 year old me, now living on college campus, stuck doing a degree I don't truly want, but my parents won't let me chance. I'm succumbing to depression, adhd, and anxiety, but who cares. My body has most of its functions back but will never be the same. Still dysphoric and suicidal every day despite transitioning.
It will get better. When, my love, when? It's almost been a decade of being suicidal every single day, as well as being abused and to a degree, disabled. Some people's foundation for life crumbles, I didn't have one to begin with.
on top of that, a decade is a pretty long time. Would you expect a person to undergo cancer treatment for 10 years, only for it to not be solved? You'd feel sympathetic, right? Maybe even feel bad for them? You wish their suffering would just be over.. Why is this any different? Why am I suddenly "just not strong enough" or "just try harder"?
I'm genuinely convinced it'll never get better. I don't really have any (easy) method of... you know what, but I still want to "commit" every single day. I genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, believe it will never get better.
hey so being autistic is a defining part of my personality and identity. most of the good and interesting things in my life stem from that. and most of my friends are autistic or neurodivergent, and are my friends because we’re neurodivergent and have cool things in common. I like myself, and my life, and the people in it, and i’m getting damned tired of seeing our mental divergences portrayed as innately negative and scary. being autistic means we face unique challenges and deserve respectful accommodations, full stop. Our lives are full and very much worth living, thanks
yknow what i have been sick of this guy for a very long time now so I am calling him out in adjacent with @feathery-bastard 's callout post.
Now, it is not my usual cup of tea to make callout posts since I do not want to associate myself with drama, however there needs to be said something about Puterboy.
For the record, this guy for all I know is a 30 year old man traversing everywhere in social media in his freetime (which is almost 24/7). He may be a very inconspicuous man but please NOTE that he is actually a very concerning individual and I advise people to not only block him, but to also kick him out of any platform he is in. He is not only in Tumblr, but in Facebook, Youtube, Reddit, Twitter, AO3, Discord, Fanficton.net, everything you can probably name under the sun.
Not only is he in the Lord of The Flies fandom, but also in the Percy Jackson fandom, Kingdom Hearts, Empire of The Sun, Thomas the Tank Engine, Winnie the Pooh, and more. Please spread this to these other fandoms.
Please be aware of his actions. Here are the list of everything that we could document about his actions and behavior. He is a creepy individual that is borderline PDF behavior if you know what I mean.
can we all collectively kick puterboy out of this fandom and use the document against please i want him gone
hi guys this is the person who i mentioned in my previous post. please block him on sight. thank you.
tw: sexualizing minors, racism, nsfw content
If you don't know what I'm referring to PLEASE check out my original post here: https://www.tumblr.com/feathery-bastard/769114115445751808/callout-post-cw-sexualizing-minors
so anyways, here's a masterdoc update with screenshots of puterboy's behavior. PLEASE block this man on sight, he doesn't need any more attention than he's already gotten.
I recently went through an extremely frightening experience with a mutual of mine. I won’t go into details but I feel I need to share this.
Please block and report him, he’s sexualised minors, harassed minors, said racist sexist and homophobic comments about minors/and adults
He harasses people in multiple communities, pjo kingdom hearts and tlotf mostly
(Please click to read about the puter files)
Feel free to come to us (anonymously, privately or publicly is ok) if you have any questions, Information, pr have had interactions with puter)
Okay...I have a lot of thoughts about the SInder situation, being a now-former huge fan, but I'll just get one of my major thoughts out of the way...
I see a lot of people say things like "Well, what did you expect from being a fan of an influencer" or some other thing, but to me, that just feels hugely demoralizing.
I get that we're upset at her being a huge scumbag, but saying shit like "Welp, that's what I get for caring" is just cope. You're allowed to crash out in this scenario. I give you my personal permission.
There are plenty of truly nice and kind vtubers out there. The number of them crashing out right now is enough proof of that, at least for me. And even they're feeling bad for investing so much of their time in being friends with her.
She did an awful thing and made all of us feel bad for caring about her. Fuck. That.
Feel bad that she made it impossible to care.
Don't ever feel bad about the act of caring itself.
Don't ever feel bad about caring. Please.