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But I'm so frustrated with clothes shopping. Like, okay so I'm a bit more on the big side - but I should still be able to shop at stores like pacsun and hot topic and other stores for clothes. I should be able to go to Kohl's for shoes, but I can't
Like for example; a pair of shorts I got at pacsun, they were so cute!! Black and white flowers. And they were a size 30, so I assumed they'd fit well. Well fuck me in the ass with a chicken and color me surprise when I discover that they are too small
I, wear a wide 14-16 in normal jeans. So why can't a size 30 fit me? It honestly makes me feel like crap.
Not to mention underwear, oh my fucking god I just want to buy underwear that covers the entirety of my ass cheeks without buying underwear too big. I buy boy shorts panties and still half of my ass is hanging out. I should not look and see my butt cheek popping out like it's a neighbor coming for a cup of sugar I should see that shit quarantined like it's still covid lockdown
It is a pain to find clothes and shoes in my size, and I know many others have it worse when it comes to clothes but it's still fucking frustrating. I should be able to wear ripped jeans from a store like pacsun and be able to do a squat in them without feeling like someone tied plastic around my thighs and belly to extract blood.
I should be able to wear ripped jeans and shorts without my thighs or legs popping out further than the fabric itself and making me look like a damn balloon animal freshly tied. And for God's sake it's even WORSE when I get tights and they look fucking see through on me when they're my size
That's all, just some frustrations about my body and clothes shopping
Stores, do better.
y’know what i hate? drawing armour
no i wont apologize
Sorting through old school files- the way I pitched this clip to my prof and he said “I remember that movie. I love when students use stuff no one’s heard of!” ahh yes… one of my favourite teachers
and not to keep going on about this but I had a mate give me a suggestion of something I could take to make it easier and calm my anxiety and of course I didn't say it to his face or deliberately be a dick or anything but how do I explain that it's not just anxiety, it's everything. it's the loud noises, it's constant hot then cold then hot then cold, it's the fact that carrying baggage just drains me, the fact I feel restricted by the multiple layers I have on to save bag space, the fact that I always feel scared something's gonna go wrong, it's the feeling in my head and body when actually getting up into the air and landing. it's everything. and I know a lot of this could be solved if I just took better precautions or whatever but it right now in this moment it makes me want to burst into tears and throw up and will continue like that until I'm home. I just hate flying.
I am once again reminded why I loathe flying with basically my entire being. it's such an awful experience and I struggle with it so so much. it doesn't help that the last time I flew, it was one of the most awful experiences flying I've had and has left me with lingering memories and flashes that always make me want to burst into tears every time I remember. there's no real point to this, just that I hate flying, it absolutely fucking sucks and I can't wait til I get home so I can burst into tears, hug my family, pet my cat, eat a homecooked meal and pass out for the following 72 hrs. fuck flying. :(((
I am once again reminded why I loathe flying with basically my entire being. it's such an awful experience and I struggle with it so so much. it doesn't help that the last time I flew, it was one of the most awful experiences flying I've had and has left me with lingering memories and flashes that always make me want to burst into tears every time I remember. there's no real point to this, just that I hate flying, it absolutely fucking sucks and I can't wait til I get home so I can burst into tears, hug my family, pet my cat, eat a homecooked meal and pass out for the following 72 hrs. fuck flying. :(((