I Love Music - Blog Posts

“has the question become darker than the answer? baby, i’ve got news.””

miele / music savant in the making / wannabe movie analyst / vocabulary warrior / baker / writer / deplorable yapper / forest green's #1 fan / caribbean american / this is also me / average ankh enthusiast / on the lobotomy waitlist / i am dissolving as we speak

who wants to be the breeze in my austin nights? (Mitski reference)

Chat, here's my Spotify Wrapped... what can you guys tell about me just by it alone?

Y’all I lost my headphone I’m going to kms

“Every conversation ends with you screaming. Not even words, just ah, ah, ah, aah.” - ‘Car Seat Headrest’ in the song ‘Sober To Death’

I want to be loved without lust, but I still want intimacy. DAMNIT. Anyway, music is life. 🫶🏻

alex g reference???

i wanna crack a rib.

Ok hear me out I wrote the most bitter break up song here a verse:

I used to run with you put up with shit you do, listen to the shit you spew but I’m through with you

You wrap up your shit and treat like some kinda gift, but now I see all of you I’m through with you

P.s Sorry for saying shit so many times

loving something in today's society

putting your heart on something's hands

trusting and believing

is hoping that no one will ever reveal their secret

and you feel like a monster

but till the secret ain't out it's fine

left my headphones at home today i’m crashing out 🎀

my life is a mix of the vibe of a key lime pie and a crumbled fall leaf

guess you gotta accept the pain

need a cigarette to make me feel better

Wait no you actually need to listen to the mind electric with the bass turned up.

It’s like

hrrggkkk the sound waves will damage my ears yes, but I think if I I turn them up more I might start levitating so… for science I shall play it at MAX VOLUME.

Please don’t actually play it on max volume. I have a headache now.

I am. actually going to lose it /pos THE. FUCKING

The "you claim to relish entropy/stuck detiorating endlessly, helplessly" bit in the bidding with the switching sides of the headphones is making me so normal. I am so. so normal about this

i will genuinely never understand how people live without a music taste, like WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU JUST "listen to what's on the radio" literally how???? you don't have a favourite artist a favourite band???? are you even real????

Revamp of my tumblr yay! I think I’m planning on just sharing all of the thoughts I’ve ever had on here (if I remember). I keep honestly forgetting about all my apps BUT I’m boycotting meta so I’m back to my roots, idk what thoughts I’ll have, but I will have them so

⋆˚࿔‘I cry a puddle of dreams and despair entangled in misery and enlightenment’࿔˚⋆

Rest easy Freddie, you are dearly missed by many! Forever the King of Queen!

“Everything Means Nothing To Me.”

𝓲 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓮𝔁𝓲𝓼𝓽 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮₊˚⊹ ࿔

~🔮🌞🥀~

~i find raw emotions beautiful, the ‘uglier’ they are the more beautiful i think they are because its genuine. Im disgusted but also mesmerised by my own emotions. I only ever want to get worse. ive never had any wish to recover. It hurts but its the hurt that i feed off. if thst makes sense. time and time again i tend to imagine myself at the bottom of a tower thats like a prison, sprawled out on the floor. suffering because i’d finally let myself succumb to my mental illness. I dont know if any of this even makes sense.i i think its time for a cigarette🫶💖i dont wanna live(ldr reference) but atleast music is good~

𖦹₊ ⊹Anyway heres a poem~

how to never stop being sad

let the anguish fester inside of you,

let the chilling hands of this demon become your embodiment,

let the waterfall free from the imprisonment of your eyes,

drain yourself of the blood congested in your veins,

drench yourself in the crimson trickling into the crevices of your body,

as if swimming in the deepest body of water,

let yourself drown,

become the sorrows you fear,

depleted as you begin to embrace the void,

leave it free to poison your mind and body till your left an empty carcass,

walk through the simulation of life,

a living dead girl,

the void in your eyes so potent,

let the torment orchestrate your life.

~.°˖✧ 1 of 89 poems ✧˖°.~

im not so sure whether i like the poem or not but its there to read anyway<3🫶💖

~𝜗𝜚

no one really cares for what i have to say, not even my ‘friends’.this blog is like my safe space idk.i spent ages trying to make this perfect.hopefully this post reaches the girls(and non girls) that get it!💖

⋆⭒˚.⋆if your reading this i love you ₊˚⊹ ᰔ

~𝜗𝜚

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Song im listening to~

(i do this because i love music and im always listening to music and i like letting people know what im into)

I know - Fiona Apple

that one line in so high school-taylor swift where she says "touch me while your bros play grand theft auto" i giggle every time because its so unserious 😭

but on the other hand, that one line in skinny-billie eilish where she says "and the old me is still me and maybe the real me and i think she's pretty" literally rips my heart out every time

something i keep experiencing