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It's a tough world, but at least I have you. At least you are my bestfriend
"You lead me on. Through every word, every single text, you romanticized the idea of our friendship. You slowly gained my trust even after years of me not trusting people. I even said I'd take a bullet for you. You told me you'd stay, unlike the others. You told me you'd stay. You told me you'd stay. And I believed you.
And then you left.
Breaking every word that you ever said to me."
- Dreaming of Wolves // Spilled
- Dreaming of Wolves//Memoir
Important Things My Friends Have Said To Me:
- "No, it's not okay. I can tell you're upset. I'm here if you want to talk."
- "I can't help you if you don't want to help yourself."
- "Trust me. I'm not going to hurt you. I promise."
- "You are too amazing for us to forget. We'd be stupid if we forgot you."
- "Don't worry. I'll protect you."
- "I wilL PUNCH YOU WITH FRIENDSHIP IF YOU DON'T STOP TALKING BAD ABOUT YOURSELF."
- "Don't worry! I'm smiling, and you should too. :D"
- "You should've told me. I'm here for you. I'm always here for you."
- "They love you, I love you. Please, accept our love."
I have such wholesome and great friends. What did I do to deserve them?
"How am I supposed to say I miss you and I love you when you ruined my life? How am I supposed to morn you when you were my monster, controlling me like a puppet that I wasn't. I'm free, and yet here I am, still confused. Are you family or a foe? Am I supposed to miss you or forget you? Am I even supposed to have these thoughts?"
- Dreaming of Wolves//Dark 3AM Thoughts
"A part of me wonders if you'll even show up to my funeral. Will we still be friends before we die?"
- Dreaming of Wolves//Dark 3AM Thoughts
(Don't worry, I'm okay I swear, I'm just expressing myself.)
What To Do If You Catch Me Venting In A Conversation:
- liSTEN.
- Try to calm me down.
- DO NOT say that my emotions/things I am talking about are invalid.
- Put yourself in my shoes and try to see it from my perspective.
- Don't. Leave.
- Try and understand.
* I'll probably tell you sorry the next day or so if I find I'm overreacting. I'll probs just say I'm sorry in general.
"It's a sad truth that I will write about everyone I love, but none of them will even try and put me into a sentence."
- Dreaming of Wolves
"She's going to sit alone. Right at that same table where she built it all. Her happiness, her courage, her perseverance, but most importantly, where she met all of her friends. Now it's all crumbling down to her fingertips. She closes her eyes and tries to dream herself away into a reality where all of that still exsists, but she can't. It's all blank without the real thing... Without the real them. Complete nothingness. She can't even remember their voices. Everything is fading away from her. And everytime, she blames herself for something that she couldn't control. They've all left now; her friends. The girl lifts her head and stares at them. They're all happy. They all prance around, discussing random topics she used to talk about with them all of the time. She even sees her crush holding hands with her best friend. They don't even notice her. All of them go sit at their new table, completely forgetting about what once was. She weakly smiled as tears fell down her cheeks. Her heart ached for them. For someone. But she had no one. She put her head back down and waited for an escape. She pulled her sketchbook and poetry journal closer to her. They may only be objects, but they are all she has now. She pours her heart out crying. She couldn't hold it in any longer. Her fears were reality, and she somehow had to stay strong in this. But how could she stay strong when she wasn't going to be remembered by any of them? Was it all pointless to make memories in the first place? She just wanted to disappear. She then heard whispers all around her. It sounded like her friends, but that couldn't be. She lifted her head up and rubbed her eyes. A boy with a pretend smile and a sympathetic gaze pulled me into a hug.
"You're going to be okay, we're all going to be okay. I promise."
She cried into his chest until they all gathered around her and tackled her into a group hug.
Her friends.
They were here.
"I'm sorry for the mess I've created," She shyly whispered, "haven't you forgotten me, yet? I would've."
"How could we forget about you?" A raven haired boy asked, "We've been right here the whole time."
- Dreaming of Wolves//Vent
(I just... Sobbed while writing this.)
"How dare you. How dare you leave me when I am at my worst. You hold a blank stare as you shatter me with your words. Can't you see I'm bleeding out? You storm away and shut the door, and the only thing I can possibly think of is how I just lost you. And how much I'm going to miss you. But you don't care, and now I realize, you never did."
- Dreaming of Wolves//Vent