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Atsushi Kinnie Callout - From an Atsushi Kinnie (Part 1)

I'm gonna be brutally honest here and projecting a lot so be warned fellow kinnies

1. You were taught that the worth of your life is determined by how much you help or benefit others

An important figure in your life (the orphanage “headmaster”) taught you that people who don’t help others with their existence do not deserve to live, and it would be better if they were dead.

The irony is, you only extend this belief to yourself, because you recognize that in extending it to others, you would be believing some other people do not deserve to live. And you recognize how cruel, terrible and wrong that is. Yet, you cannot see how cruel and terrible it is to yourself.

2. You have a huge savior complex

Since you believe the value of your life comes from how much you benefit others, you try to help people as much as you can. To others, it seems like you are a kind and selfless person, but deep down, you have two things motivating you:

• the suffocating fear of being unworthy of living if you aren't of any use to people around you

• the rush of "selfish” joy you feel when you have a great impact on someone, when you are the most important person to someone and are irreplaceable to them. Because these make you feel useful and worthy of living.

Because of these, you have the tendency to form codependent relationships, with you as the "giver". It ensures that someone always needs you, so you are always worthy of living. You may even become slightly manipulative, befriending and trying to become close to those who seem more in need of help, more isolated, more lonely.

Because they're more likely to need you, as desperately as you need to be needed.

3. You believe your kindness is fake, and that you are actually a selfish and terrible person

Because you help people out of the selfish motivation to make yourself feel better, so that you feel like you deserve to live more, you feel endlessly guilty. Because.. an actually kind person would help others, for others to be happy, not for themselves, right?

Additionally, since the belief that helping others gives you the permission to live was taught to you, you feel your kindness was a taught behavior as well. You feel that at your core, you are a selfish person who was just taught not to be, and that makes all the selfless actions you’ve done worthless. Maybe you approach caring for others in a calculating way: memorize their interests, check up on them, listen to them; these will make people happy.

4. Guilt is your primary emotion

Guilt for your existence, for your mistakes, for failing to help people, is the biggest driver of your emotions. Guilt controls your life, and it is an exhausting emotion to live with.

5. You care more about what’s inside than outside

You’re not concerned about other people or your appearances, reputations or social status, because how people treat others around them and their hearts is much more important to you.

6. You are stuck in the past

The belief that chains you to the cycle of guilt is one in your past. The headmaster in your life is gone now, but the flashbacks and words remain. Why is that? Is it because you became so used to them, that they kept you safe? They were all you ever knew, the only way you knew how to navigate the world. With no other guide, you are terrified of letting go of this belief, which defines your existence.

Maybe you are terrified, if you let go of this belief, you will become a terrible and selfish person. Or maybe you are scared of becoming better, because it would feel like your past never happened.

Okay thanks for reading! Will post part 2 when this gets 20+ notes :D

if you take out all the murder, the ending of assassination classroom is reflected in any student-teacher bond. no matter how close they become, there is always a ticking clock on the relationship. you only get one year with that teacher, with that class. the end of the year may as well be the end of the world. everything the students learn brings them closer to the point when they can leave the teacher behind. after graduation, the students will move on to their futures, armed with all the knowledge they've gained, but the teacher can't come with them.

there's a reason every episode's title has the word "time" in it. because the whole show is about the time class e gets to spend together, and the titles are a constant reminder that that time is limited.

the assassination of koro-sensei is class e's graduation. from that moment forward, the teacher, the class, and middle school itself, are no longer a part of their lives. it would seem the message is that nothing lasts forever. the sakura blossoms always fall, children always grow up, and the fun times always end.

Headcannon (that no one, and I mean no one, can convince me otherwise):

Geto Suguru is an avid listener of keshi.

and I will elaborate. but the playlists get more soul destroying as we go, you’ve been warned :)))

Could all be taken as part of the main cannon, but also just his character in general, STSG-coded (it is physically impossible for me to avoid and I don’t even want to avoid it), etc.

★ ★ ★ - spicy

- ANGOSTURA

- SOMEBODY

- KISS ME RIGHT

- Say

- beside you

- Like That

- TOUCH

- GET IT (cult leader Geto, anyone?)

(Pls these are all so him and all so hot^)

♡ ♡ ♡ - fluffy

- UNDERSTAND (especially stsg coded goodbye they literally were the only people who ever truly got each other.)

- Soft Spot

- War With Heaven (touch of angst when you think about it ahem so don’t. It’s actually so deep I could make a whole post on that itSELF)

✧ ✧ ✧ - existential but there’s hope

- LIMBO

- Just to Die

- i swear i’ll never leave again

- Forever (don’t think about it too hard tho or it becomes sad immediately)

˙◠˙ ˙◠˙ ˙◠˙ - existential but losing his shit (hidden inventory/premature death arc go extra crazy)

- Requiem

- Id

- Amen

- HELL/HEAVEN

- drunk

- blue

- atlas

- skeletons

;-; ;-; ;-; - kfc trauma

- war

- us

- ANGEL (please don’t think about this from Gojo’s POV unless you don’t love yourself today.)

BONUS:

- GET IT

- Absolutely would’ve been in their shared Pre-Mission Hype Playlist

- GABRIEL

- Chapter 236. GoodBYE.

- ^^ Requiem could also apply I’m gone.

*Though these songs aren’t restricted to stsg dynamic alone, I feel like Satoru relates to a LOT of these/can be taken as seeing from his POV

- ^^ Suguru tortured himself by adding it to the playlist anyway :)))

I feel like this started out more organized than it became, but I’m on 1.5 hrs sleep!!! I just needed it out of my brain and into the world!!!