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Lately, I've been having some weird ass dreams.

First, some context: From about 1st-2nd grade to 7th grade, I've been bullied, mostly by this one guy in particular, and his friend too. Not only have I developed trauma because of it, but I'm even paranoid about getting a job because seeing either of them in public scares me so much. (As I went to online school after 7th grade. I'm now a senior.) This anxiety and paranoia has prevented me from getting a job for the past few years. It did not help that in 2021, while working at the local haunted house, I was recognized by my bully despite my entire face being covered up. He insulted me and laughed at me, and harassed other workers on their way out. (I had to text up front to have a manager escort me out so I could take a breather. A different manager tried to go after them after hearing what they did to me and my coworkers, so now they're banned, anyway.)

But, as of the past two months, he keeps appearing in my dreams. If it was just regular bully stuff, I wouldn't be having an issue, as I easily recognize when I'm dreaming and don't get easily scared in dreams anymore. But, that is not the case. Instead, I've been dreaming of romantic situations with this guy, and it's... weird. I mean sure, I used to think I was crushing on him back in elementary school, but now? I'm terrified of this guy, I have literal PTSD because of him, so WHY am I having these dreams?

I genuinely am at a loss of what to think or do about this. I don't understand why I'm having these dreams, because I don't think even remotely positively about him. I'm scared of him, so how can I be dreaming of these situations? It honestly scares me, it makes me very frustrated. I just don't know what to do and it's worse when I don't even know why it's happening. So please, smart people with more braincells than me, does anyone have any clues as to why this could be happening??

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4 years ago

Problems with “Nerd and Jock” AU.

TW/ Pedophilia, rape mentions

PJ and Fresh’s personalities don’t even go together well, not to mention Fresh is most certainly NOT a bottom. Killer and Nightmare. Minor, adult. Need I say much else? Cray and Cotton. Minor, adult. Swapfell raped Dust. Goth raped Palette, and then Palette was so rightfully broken up about it, and Goth decided it was in his best mind to try and kill himself IN THE SCHOOL LIBRARY, just for things to OH SO MAGICALLY WORK OUT PERFECTLY- Everybody thirsting Dream and Nightmare. Like yeah they’re pretty but jesus christ... Killer forcefully kissing Nightmare.

TL;DR: Minor x adults aka pedophilia, multiple rapes, non-consensual things in general, and very weird thirsting for older people.


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4 years ago

Something that should really be addressed

“minors get off my page this is 18+” “minors cant be on here this is 18+” “minors this” “minors that”

YES. WE GET IT. YOU MAKE NSFW AND SIN.

As a minor, fully aware of unwholesome stuff like that, I’m fine looking at art of nsfw or sin! I actually like looking at it because it helps teach me anatomy for when I draw! (i also really like to admire people’s art and nsfw is top-notch art)

Point is. MINORS. LOOK. AT. PORN. TOO. Minors watch porn in CLASS ffs! What the hell is some nsfw drawing gonna do to us? NOTHING!

MINORS KNOW WHAT SEX IS YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE ANNOYING ABOUT IT, OKAY???

And maybe social media should learn that it’s the MINORS fault for looking at something bad, not the artist’s/author’s fault. If their parents catch it, it’s the minor’s fault, not the artist’s/author’s.

IF YOU ARE A NSFW/SIN ARTIST, AND YOU’RE IN A MESS OF MAKING YOUR ART NSFW AND SOMEONE LOOKED AT IT EVEN THOUGH THEY WEREN’T SUPPOSED TOO, YOU TELL THAT PERSON SPECIFICALLY. ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY IS THAT THEY SHOULDN’T BE LOOKING AT WHAT YOU MAKE, IT ISN’T YOUR FAULT THAT THEY LOOKED AT IT. GET THIS THROUGH YOUR THICK GODDAMN HEADS BECAUSE I AM GETTING ANGERED ABOUT THIS-


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4 years ago
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That's actually scary--

3 years ago

im just spilling my thoughts here at this point, but this topic is bothering me..

I've heard older generations saying "Gen Z and every generation after is shit because they're insensitive and sensitive at the same time".

My argument on this is, 1. when you treat Gen Z badly, they'll treat you badly too. We grew up always taught "the golden rule", and that's "treat people how you want to be treated", so when other generations above Gen Z, treat them like shit, they get that same treatment, because if you can't respect us, we won't respect you. That's so simple, it's not hard to understand.

TW// rxpe and SA mention

2. Maybe people should start learning to not make bad jokes about rxpe, SA, and other extremely sensitive topics? We're "sensitive" because you make inappropriate jokes, that aren't funny to joke about.

My counter on myself is that, yes, some people in this generation take things way too seriously (myself included, which i'm trying to work on) and some try to cancel people they hate over dumb shit from the past, but generations above us group us all together, saying all of Gen Z are terrible and assume the worst in people and try to cancel everyone, and then these people saying this continue to say shit like "not all christians are trump supporters or homophobic, stop grouping us together". :/ Why don't we all stop grouping people together in general?

That brings me onto a whole 'nother tangent on "why are all men...", but i might talk about it a different time.

Anyways, another big thing is that they say Gen Z is too sensitive, but generations above us get upset when we tell them to respect us or we tell them that it's okay to cry and be stressed out.. but idk its just my thoughts

2 years ago

“…and what will you do if I refuse?”

“Oh, my sweet darling, my love, my everything… what wouldn’t I do?”

7 months ago

you know what annoys me?

this stupid video i keep getting recommended on youtube, called "we don't talk about dan schneider" my first point is: why? because he essentially publicized his own fetishes through literal children? what makes him worse than any other pedophile or serial killer? why do we talk about the zodiac killer, jack the ripper? why talk about dr**m or kr*s tyson? why talk about any other criminals, like d.b. cooper or the Columbus high school shooters? this leads right into my second point: we talk about these examples to not repeat the past. what makes schn**der any different from these people, that makes it horrible to talk about? nothing. because we continue to tell these stories because it's a part of human history and we talk about it to not repeat it. if we dont talk about these cases, the past will be repeated, we will be blind to all the signs that we now recognize as predatory.

don't say "dont talk about them". talk about them. warn people. show them the warning signs. dont forget about what he's done, so we can help people in the future. stop living in a circle. live in a line. don't repeat the past.

2 years ago

Next we have the most cult-ist shit I've ever seen, all said by someone who claims to be her partner.

Next We Have The Most Cult-ist Shit I've Ever Seen, All Said By Someone Who Claims To Be Her Partner.
Next We Have The Most Cult-ist Shit I've Ever Seen, All Said By Someone Who Claims To Be Her Partner.
Next We Have The Most Cult-ist Shit I've Ever Seen, All Said By Someone Who Claims To Be Her Partner.

All of these were responses to other people calling out meowbah for being a shit human being.

And, just in case you guys want to read things for yourselves, this is their account.

Next We Have The Most Cult-ist Shit I've Ever Seen, All Said By Someone Who Claims To Be Her Partner.

Still pretty cult-ish.

What can we do about all this?

First of all... STOP INTERACTING WITH MEOWBAH. The more interactions meowbah gets, the more enabled they feel, and the more they will continue, regardless of if it's hate or not.

Second... We NEED to make sure that the youtubers involved (Ranboo, Tommy, Dream, and even George because he ended up in there at some point too) are aware of what's being done to them. Yes, it's super uncomfortable for them, but because they are REAL PEOPLE, who were put in there WITHOUT PERMISSION... they are the ones who can take legal action.

Third... REPORT MEOWBAH. Any platform that you see meowbah, REPORT HER. We ALL need to be reporting her. We know she still has a platform on discord too, which I'm personally not sure how to go about that, but eventually we can figure that part out.

So: REMEMBER... keep yourselves educated. Report, ignore, and bring awareness to others without enabling her.

WOW! A new meowbah post. Let's jump right in. By the way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There are mentions of pedophilia, necrophilia, racism, mocking of religion, dead people mentioned, what can be described as cultists, and probably more.

First of all, I think these screenshots will speak for themselves.

WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions
WOW! A New Meowbah Post. Let's Jump Right In. By The Way: MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS. There Are Mentions

Technoblade is a dead youtuber (rest in power), he passed away from cancer in 2022. He was never okay with shipping or NSFW art of him, and there are suspicions that he was POSSIBLY (not confirmed because he never said it himself) aromantic and asexual.

Tommyinnit is a youtuber as well, he was underage up until last year in April when he turned 18. He has made it explicitly clear that he is NOT OKAY with shipping and NSFW content of him.

Ranboo is all the same. He turned 18 a little over a year ago, and is NOT OKAY with shipping and NSFW content of them.

While I don't know much about Jellybean, I do know they only turned 18 November 2022, to which meowbah made NSFW art to "celebrate" it.

This is obviously an issue, because she makes art of REAL people, without permission, and to add onto that: these are people who are not okay with NSFW about them.

(cont.)


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4 years ago

yesss bish

What if someone under 18 saw your drawings?

Aaaaand?It’s not a NSFW blog, so whatever

And if you mean my other blog, i also don’t care, it’s their problem

5 years ago

Midoriya's Secret Power

Shouto: I'm not here to make friends

Izuku: *exists*

Shouto: Izuku, where are you.

Izuku: *sends location*

Shouto: bye dad i gotta go save my friend

Enji:

Shouto:

Enji:

Shouto: *internally screams at self*


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5 years ago

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