Ohhh [fictional Character With Worse Mental Health Than Me] Save Meeeee From This Cruel World.

Recovery from intensely restrictive and abusive upbringing is like: I’m comfortable with ambiguity, I’m comfortable with ambiguity, I’m comfortable with ambiguity, OH MY GOD SOMEONE TELL ME THE RULES RIGHT NOW OR I WILL DIE. AM I ALLOWED TO DO THIS? WHAT DO YOU WANT??? AM I IN TROUBLE FOR ASKING??? TELL ME THE RULES, IM SO SCARED, nvm I’m comfortable with ambiguity, I’m comfortable with ambiguity, I’m okay, this is fine, I’m comfortable with ambiguity

in this new year I want you to be alright. I hope you move out. I hope you have enough money to feel safe. I hope you abandon shame and forgive yourself. I hope you get enough sleep and some good news. I hope you laugh a lot and the heaviness of the world eases a bit. I wish you to be alright.

The way I've seen abuse normalized as a Jehovah's Wittness is appaling. I know so many people, including some in my family, who are stuck with abusive partners under threat of excommunication or "sinning against god". Few victims ever leave and those who find out about the situation often praise the victim for putting god first by staying.

On the other hand children are told their value exists in being fully obedient to their parents to please god. You are explicitly told that even if the parent is wrong or listening to them upsets you, it doesn't matter. Yet, they're surprised when abusers flourish.

Members can't acknowledge this because their relationship with the organization is the same. You do everything you're told, often in your worst interest, and you can't leave.

I want PIMOs here to know that there are "worldly people" kinder than you can imagine. Friends you'll gain that aren't conditional in their support. New experiences you never even considered, but that bring you immense joy. Parts of yourself that you'll find and can now let free.

Your life isn't over for waking up, it's about to begin.

SINGAL BOOST !!!! PLEASE HELP !

hi everyone, i really do hate to do this but i am stuck in a toxic situation. i am getting sterilized on March 11th and my parents are not happy about it. they have been gaslighting and guilt tripping me to cancel my appointment which i will not. i have been in this situation for a while now. long story short, my parents are Jehovah’s Witnesses and i no longer can take the manipulation anymore. i am looking to find another place to live as i know it will be better for my mental health. i am always on the verge of being homeless because they always threaten to kick me out if i do not follow their “rules.” now that covid hit, they have taken this as an opportunity to not see anyone that i care about too. the situation has gotten so bad that even my younger brother has developed a nervous tick because being around them gives him a panic attack. 

i am asking for any financial or housing help. my partner and i are trying our best to find a place to live so in about a year my brother has a place to live and i no longer have to be afraid of being homeless nor hide how i am. however because of covid, it’s made things much harder in finding a place to live.

if you can donate any money i’ll link my cash app and paypal here:

cash app: $hibaririvera

paypal: princesshibari

if you can’t donate i plead you reblog this so someone can. any help is appreciated at this time ! i am hopeful to get both my brother and i out of this toxic situation unscathed and alive.

Your heart aches for the bitter work that lead you down this destructive path.

Ways to get Jehovah’s Witnesses to fuck off (as written by a former Jehovah’s Witness)

Ask to be put on the Do Not Call list. If you think it’s necessary, ask to watch them get out the territory card and write it down, but realistically, Witnesses in my experience are pretty good about this and the only time it won’t be honored is if someone forgets to check your address or if it’s been like 10+ years

Tell them you are an apostate. They are not allowed to speak to apostates at all, ever, but especially in regards to their beliefs. They aren’t supposed to go to places/events where they know apostates will be

Argue with them. Jehovah’s Witnesses are instructed to end the conversation and leave if it becomes clear that someone wants to debate rather than just passively learn and accept that they were wrong before. This might get you put on the DNC list without even asking

DO NOT answer the door naked. You wouldn’t think this needs said, but intentionally flashing people is sexual harassment, and Jehovah’s Witnesses frequently preach with children— both as a training thing and because people are more likely to be receptive. They say every JW who’s preached long-term has gotten a naked householder at least once. Do not do this

DO NOT unleash your dogs in the yard. First off, your dogs aren’t as mean as you think they are lol. Second off, almost every JW has been dealing with giant jumpy dogs— again— since they were children. Letting loose your dogs will get their dress clothes muddy, possibly tear them, and maybe scare some children/a few adults who will simply pass the door to someone else. It will also make every other dog in the neighborhood start barking. This isn’t helping you or anyone else

DO NOT call the police. Evangelizing is fully legal in the United States and JWs are not soliciting anything. Some areas make Witnesses get permits to preach, but that’s it. One time an elder in my congregation had people raise their hands if they’ve ever had the cops called on them, and it was two thirds of the Hall. Witnesses use these incidents to further their persecution complex. If you call the cops on them, they will absolutely be back next week, even pushier and more determined

People saying being gay is a choice and then show me characters like this:

You think anyone can choose to ignore her! Smh 😔

I feel bad for the non-cult friends I have sometimes because they always ask "How are you :) ?" so innocently. They say they genuinely want to know cause I hold back, and it's nice to have that support. Still, it feels bad to always have a new horrible thing happen that's shaken you.

Sure I'm growing so much as a person and I love that, but I'm also dealing with my parents increasingly abusive behavior and struggling to organize my escape plan. All anyone can really do is say "It will get better!" Truely I believe that too, yet I still have to suffer now and I cant make myself ignore it anymore. I'm tired of being miserable no matter what I do. Everything that can be done has been, so now I helplessly flounder.

Even to this blog, it feels bad to not offer any insight or clear hope. I've seen so many people in similar situations who aren't lucky enough to know they should be done with this in less than a year. I just wish it would stop hurting...

saw a post a while back about Sophie making increasingly gaudy hats for Howl for every birthday and him absolutely loving them