♡ ‘Fairy Nymph Dream-Kitty’ ♡ Prismacolor Pencils & Sakura Gelly Roll Glitter Pen; 2022.  Prints

people who dont experience it cannot comprehend how awful executive dysfunction is. I WANT to do the task, i have the resources TO do the task, i will feel better having DONE the task

but i cant fucking do the task

— Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

Betsy Johnson 1997

Celestarian: A  gender that is a combination of juparian, lunettian, and mercurian. Someone who is celestarian can be fluid between all three/feel different amounts of each at different times.

The burden of caring the memories of your abuse while not being able to talk about it bc it makes most people uncomfortable is HEAVY

It feels like being stuck carrying his dirty little secret. I can't stand the fact it's gonna stay like this...forever.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

I might be a boy

Jean-François Portaels (1818–1895), Sweet flowers (detail)

I have had these dreams since I was about 4 years old, yes! Not quite nameable very awful energy.

Do you ever dream of the bad place? I can't really explain it but that's what I call these weird spaces or rooms in my dreams where I can just feel the most menacing, evil, dangerous atmosphere that makes me afraid to come closer or even wakes me up from fear, or I'm screaming in my sleep. These spaces often look normal and realistic, just a regular basement or building, they usually feature some kind of door too. It's just so surreal because in dreams you forget that what you see is not real, so suddenly feeling this eerie vibes from a room or door makes the evil seem so material and clear. Ever since my childhood I've been dreaming about the same places over and over and my worst fear is that one day I'll find them in real life and feel this dread then too. But maybe I would open the door, I'm just so desperately curious to know what kind of terror is so bad, it's finding its way into my dreams. I want to know what's there. And I want to know if I'm the only one who has these dreams.

Corsage (2022)