I Can't Keep Living Like This!!! [does Not Change A Single Aspect Of My Life]

Bharani nakshatra and red

Me trying to beat the Bharani and mars dominant (sidereal) or Aries dominant (tropical) look best in red or red hair accusations but copper is my favorite hair color I've ever tried 🫣

I'm Bharani sun btw

Even Megan Thee stallion had a red hair phase and she's a Bharani moon I think she dyed her hair red recently too

Another Astro Observation ig tbh I really just wanna share my experiences and see if other placements have the same experiences I struggle interpreting astrology so relating it to my life and experiences helps also I'm gonna try to put songs that remind me of these placements

Recently someone called me arrogant and I was confused because I struggle with confidence I don't think I'm arrogant or come off that way. Then I looked more into astrology and realized why people may think this. I'm pluto, sun, and jupiter dominant I'm also a scorpio rising with jupiter in my 1st house. I think these placements come off as very confident. And tbh I think being self obsessed can be good to an extent because people are always trying to bring you down.

Songs:

Juice by Lizzo

Conceited by Flo Mili

Persuasive by Doechii

If You Seek Amy by Britney Spears

Cockiness by Rihanna

And that brings me to the next observation people ALWAYS try to bring pluto/scorpio placements down. This probably also applys to lilith placements too but yea Ex:

So as a scorpio rising I was bullied a lot when younger especially on my appearance and the way I presented myself. I also have pluto in the 2nd house and I notice people try to "take me down a notch" by insulting my appearance (1st house) and by doing this they think it will lower my self worth/confidence (2nd house).

More about pluto in the 2nd house. I noticed pluto and scorpio can represent what gets a reaction from people. With my pluto in the 2nd house I was thinking it could be my voice, lips, and fashion (2nd house ruled by Taurus, Taurus rules throat, vocal cords, and mouth). Sagittarius is also in my 2nd house and people always talk about my smile it used to be one of the things I'd get made fun of. All of the things I listed above would. I would get comments on my voice and my lips/smile being too big. It was almost like people hated seeing me express happiness? (maybe they were jealous? Because pluto can show jealousy) and if you think about it this is spot on for this placement.

Gimme More Slayyyter remix for this one

I have virgo lilith in the 11th house and my friendships never go well/last 😭. I recently had this experience where I was sitting at a table with a bunch of girls and they all decided they didn't like me and kicked me out the table. They claimed I was too loud 🤭 (my aries mercury is screaming!!!)

Another 11th house lilith situation: I had bad friends in middle school and a teacher told me they're bad and I should stop being friends with them because they'll get me in trouble and ofc I didn't wanna listen 💀...honestly there's so many especially when it comes to online friendships

Songs: All My Friends Are Fake by Tate McRae

Backstabber by Kesha

I have venus in my 5th house and as stated above I'm sun dominant and people always tell me I should do something that has to do with theater 😍

Song: Circus by Britney Spears

My sun is opposite my asc and I feel like people always see me differently than how I see myself or how I really am

Mars in the 9th house do yall get called outspoken too? 🤨 I'm very opinionated I'd be starting conversations about controversial topics with no shame! 😘 also are yall advocates? I feel like the sign can change what you advocate for mines in cancer and I'm a feminist 😋

Songs:

Truth Hurts by Lizzo

Woman by Diana Gordon

Bad Girls by M.I.A.

I Am by Jorja Smith

Last one my mom has lilith and chiron in her 1st house and people sexualize her all the time!!! Even at work and they'll bring up her sexuality...it's getting weird 😟 she always kept a bf when younger she'll literally be minding her business and a guy will come up and offer sex like huh? Definitely getting lilith vibes

Songs:

Sex Yeah by Marina

Got it like that by Jae Stephans

Cockiness again 😜

If You Seek Amy again 😭

Am I the only one who keeps getting messages specifically asks from people asking for money claiming they're from Gaza is this some kind of scam? It just randomly happened and it's kinda a lot I'm concerned at first I thought it was real but now I think something sketchy is going on...

Omg look another rant about my life! 😍 So my friend has a bf and talks about him constantly. I want a bf and it makes me sad and jealous. It's not just her it's my friends in general, they have boyfriends and love interests. It was also really hard to see the type of girls my crush goes for because I'm never gonna be that- it was white, really tan girls with bleach blonde hair btw. I know that a lot of guys wouldn't wanna date me because I'm black (I also live in Alabama). I'm 16 and never had a real boyfriend which sucks because I just really wanna experience it. I'm tired of being told to focus on myself more or to love myself more. It also makes me feel like I'm undesirable.

Also I'm hoping to upload astrology content soon!

Little rant ig? So I'm a junior in hs and I'm freaking out because I have one more year and then shit gets real. I wanna be a cosmetologist but can I even do it? I wanna specialize in black hair but the way these schools are set up is that possible? I feel like it would be really hard and I'm scared, I'm scared of life and growing up. I don't even know how I'd pay for trade school and will I regret not going to college? Idk I'm just scared and have a lot of questions and wanted someone to talk to since my family isn't really listening.

Hello do you use whole system for your chart because if I should use this one or not?

Hello! And no I use placidus because that's the default and I didn't think to use whole signs. You can use whichever you think is better. So I'd try out both I think I'm gonna try whole signs now...if I can figure out how🤭.

THIS!!! You know there was a point in time where I'd question how I go about things specifically my beliefs and if the people who surround me need to have the same. I would think well they just have a different opinion but no, it's more than that. I don't have to and won't be around people who believe people like me dont deserve rights. This is a liberal space if you don't like that goodbye 💋

Synastry Astro Notes *my experiences with people of different synastry placements*

🌞 Sun in the first house: admiration, my last bff had this placement I also have this placement with others I look up to

A guy that would bother me a lot (low key bully) had his mercury conjunct my mars he also had his sun in my 8th house and he loved to get a reaction out of me because it gave him power (that's my opinion which lines up with this placement)

♨️ My old bff had the asteroid nemesis (128) in my first house and she expressed how pretty she thought I was. I had mine in her 4th house and I was jealous she had a brother who protected her since I never had a man protect me before (or anyone really, in a passionate way). But also after we stopped being friends her mom blocked me and her brother stopped talking to me 😭. Her mom even blocked my mom!

🧜🏾‍♀️ Venus in the 12th house is weird I have my venus in my old bff's 12th house and she liked me but I didn't like her I have it with my guy friend and we both liked each other but I rejected him because I wasn't sure I liked him (I ended up really liking him 🥲). And with people who have their venus in my 12th house I noticed I liked them but they didn't like me or at least not that I know of. But I feel it can show a close connection, guess it depends on other placements.

🌝 With moon in the 12th house it's giving therapist. I be bearing my soul to these people and they do the same 😭. But I noticed it's more about the moon person like the moon person will share their problems with the house person constantly and it gets emotionally tiring for the house person.

Mars conjunct Saturn usually shows the more mature or older person the mars being the young one ofc.

🌞♀️ You'd think sun conjunct venus is good but I'm not sure I had it with the bff and that guy who bullied me so ??

☪️ My old bff had her moon in my 8th house and this was one of my best friendships and we were really close. But also I'm pretty sure she liked me and was mad I liked her brother and that's probably why she dropped me 😭. And she literally cried because I got mad at her and that's why her mom hated me after the friendship. She also had prominent pisces and venus in the 1st house which explains some of this. Like she really thought she was the victim 😶.

☕ There's this guy I was in an insta gc with. I liked him and we started talking I guess as friends but we'd flirt (his venus in my 3rd house). And he rejected me harshly and kinda led me on (omg I just realized his chiron was also in my 3rd house). We obviously stopped talking. And sometime after he told my other guy friend (who was in the gc) that he missed me and asked for my Instagram. My friend told me though that he said I look like a goat but he'd f*** me (if drunk) like wtf? He preceded to message me and talk to me I acted like I didn't know what he said too 🤣🤐. I found out his mars and venus sqaured my asc and he's a libra rising with his moon in the first house and it all started to make sense 🥲.

It's been 2 times now where my mars ended up in a guy's 12th house and I've ended up obsessed they're cancer risings and my mars is in cancer. I heard somewhere your mars (for women or people attracted to men) sign shows what kind of men you're attracted to so this makes sense.

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