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For the first time in such a long time, I felt confident in myself today.🥰

We had OSPE (Objective structured Practical Examination) and skill laboratory exams today, and I left the exam halls feeling as if I crushed them both. I was right about one of them, and I am waiting for the results of the second one.

Feeling confident doing these exams reminded me of the feeling of excelling in exams. The rush was something I really missed. Honestly, it gave more motivation to study for my finals, which are in 3 days. I'm hoping to keep this motivation until the end.

In a completely unrelated topic, my boyfriend has broken up with me. The excuse he used was that he didn't have much time to be dating and that he needed the time for other things. Am I disappointed? Definietly. But, I am not going to brood over it and work on myself to be better. This was the last chance I was willing to give to having a relationship in medical school, and that's done for 😅

The general takeaway from this is, "Don't date in medical school." 😂

light academia this dark academia that; there is one real academia and it’s made of rubber dusts, papercuts on fingers, oily hair that hasn’t been washed in a week, big yawns, used up highlighters, dark eyebags, missed deadlines and piled up books

Your standards reflect your self worth—settling is self betrayal

You will meet people who will teach you love in its safest and purest form.

Your self concept creates you. Your self concept creates your life. Your self concept determines the quality of your reality. The dominant beliefs about yourself and your life are the foundation of your reality. The external reality is the reflection of what’s going on in your internal world. It’s a mirror. 

If you want to change something in your reality, you don't change a reflection. You change yourself, your inner world, the world of your thoughts and emotions. When you put on a new self concept, a new state of being, your reality responds. It has no other option. It has to mirror your new internal state. You are capable of manifesting anything you want. You can live the life of your dreams. But to do this, you need to put on an identity of a person you want to become and then start showing up as this person every single day.

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living in the age of social media makes us crave instant results, gratification and stimulation. we’re constantly racing against the clock instead of letting things flow. this makes it difficult to stay motivated on long term goals or have the patience to see it through. but despite the distractions, continue to believe in yourself and persist in your goals. everything comes when it’s ready.

gatekeeping how hot i am by never taking pics

The moment I realised that worrying is also a form of manifestation, I stopped.

I have a lot of creative energy, yet I sit mindlessly scrolling through lobotomizing Instagram reels and TikToks. I've thought countless times about what to do about my restlessness, but I stay stagnant. I want to make something personal and honest with all of my favorite things. I worry if what I make will be enough for me, I doubt myself a lot but my contentment is getting harder to come by and I think I just need to do it