I Just Thought Again That This "I Don't Hit Women Rule" Is Shit. It Only Means "I Won't Hit You Until

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I am so tired

Can someone explain how this app fucking works?

I am SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING POSTS ABOUT STRANGER THINGS

What can I do to stop it? I can't skip them

Why the fuck did tumblr decide that i want to see anything about this show

God have mercy on my poor mind

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐬, 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐨 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝.

God

I feel so goddamn lonely

And lost

And tired

I guess it's good that I'm not in a relationship bc it would be shitty for the other person

But i wish i had a really close friend

Idk, somehow relationships always seem like putting a lot on the other person and i just don't want to burden them

Good god i feel like this permanent feeling of this huge burden will kill me

Even though nothing really hard is happening anymore

And I really miss my ex even though i don't feel like i could make myself rely on him bc of feeling guilty for burdening

My mind is a mess

I guess I'm at this stage now. Huh.

Why do I even need friends? I can just think to myself things that I want to tell someone.

I can think things I want to say. I can think them through nice and hard. Think everything. I guess that's the only way.

I don't feel close to anyone. I tried to force myself. It just doesn't fucking work.

Oh my goodness

hey remember when taika posted this

I hope good things happen in 2025. I wish I would find a friend. I wish interesting things would happen.

I wish. For that. Which is unrealistic and dumb. Wow. I'm not going to say what it is.

A friend. Please. God, please. It's like I didn't ever try. It's not my fault I don't like them. I shouldn't take up someone's time if I don't like them.

What should I do?

Okay so I recently watched OFMD season 1 and I just kept constantly hearing Ed's laugh in my ears until I realised it was NOT Ed's laugh.

It took me a minute to figure out but I finally remembered. And... This makes so much sense. It's literally them.

I see myself having a family eventually. Not now though. I can't spend a lot of time with people, it's tiring. I am so peaceful right now during quarantine.

This makes me wonder if I will ever feel sourceful (if you can say it like these) to have someone for a long time in my life. Especially children. Will I ever feel like I won't be completely out of energy after just some time?

Life isn't a period of time. It feels more like a moment. I don't really understand how I am this old already and how I will become older. And i will feel the same way from the inside when I will be older. I will just be in the moment. Not in the 'live in the moment' way but in a 'remembering or planning doesn't feel real' way. And other people are the same.

This doesn't feel real. At all.