Nirvana

📖 reading week (04/11 - 10/12)

currently reading

lolita - nabokov (pg. 40/ 331)

crime e castigo - dostoievski (pg. 33/561)

the way of kings - brandon sanderson (460/1252)

estado de sítio - camus

to be read

a peste - camus

in the dream house - carmen maria machado

read (27/11-03/12)

infocracia - byung-chul han

o mito de sísifo - camus

kibogo - scholastique mukasonga

farsa da boa preguiça - ariano suassuna

1am, i'm reading 'hiperculturalidade', and it's so good. probably, i'll be finishing it on thursday or friday.

also, i read today 'blue horses' by mary oliver and liked it. wasn't too invested tho, but it's great.

and in the morning, i was able to read a lot of 'the idiot' by elif batuman. this book is making me so happy! her writing is amazing and just to be in selin's mind is fascinating.

be kind to yourselves 🤍🌧

where would we be without 90s hip hop. hell probably

been holding on too tight to things i can control, but today the rope ran outta my hands.

opened my eyes in the morning and straight up felt completely defeated.

there are those days when you just gotta accept to lose the battle, live minute by minute, wait for tomorrow. tomorrow, we still have possibility.

thank you, camus!

hi again! back here pretending i didn't say i'd be posting more and then disappeared. i hope there's someone here still, if there's not it's ok, let it be just me and my own tumblr shadow.

BUT if there is, i hope you're ok. been a long time, alot happened, it always does.

i went to the movies to watch one of my favorite movies of the year: 'ainda estou aqui' (i'm still here) by walter salles. it's really nice to see a brazilian film doing so well internationally.

there's a promo going on and i bought these books over ☝🏼 there. as always, camus, clarice and byung-chul han; then, ivan turgueniev, woolf (i've been wanting to buy for a long time), and today i received a dostoievski book too 👇🏼!

unfortunately 2 weeks (maybe?) ago, i got hurt on my left foot. i tried to get better but it didn't work; so yesterday during our very first game in the competition, it got worse. i had to go to the hospital. the result is me not allowed to put my left foot on the ground and jumping around the house on one leg only.

and to wrap it up, i literally just started 'the substance'. don't have anything to say yet cause i'm 10 minutes in - but the photography is insane! really really good. i hope the hype is well deserved.

to all of you, the ones reading or not, i wish you peace of mind. have a real nice december! 🤲🏼🩶

so, i came back to tumblr, after all! weird to be here, i've disappeared almost everywhere, the queen of ghosting. it was for a good reason. i've been dealing with a long period of crisis, gave up 2 semesters at uni, been stuck in my bed 23h/day (not a hyperbole). finally, i feel like coming back here.

in this whole period, i haven't done too much. couldn't read, watched not so many movies/tv shows, but i did listen to a bunch of music. that kept me a bit less depressed.

i feel like i have something inside of me that is trying too hard to get out, but i don't know how to do it; it's a feeling of creation. only a few people actually feel this, like they need to create something, to put it out, but haven't found a way yet. it's stuck, and it's a whole interwork.

AND altho i know that not many people follow me, neither know who i am or whatever, but to anybody reading this and going through something bad, i hope you get better. focus on your health. it'll pass, doesn't matter when, just be strong and keep fighting. this isn't a coaching shit or self-help bad book, but for experience of someone who's dealing with way too much. everyday is a new day to begin again, until you get it.

have a really muthafuckin great day, guys. much love to you. (that's for the 2 people maybe reading this lmfao thank you for being here) 🌧🤍

these are some books that i've bought recently. expecting lispector and camus of me should be common sense by now. and of course, literary theory. 🤍

— Albert Camus, The Possessed