It's Barely The Beginning Of The Year And I'm Already Failing

quote of my life

im so convinced i was some kind of really bad person in my past life and my current life is my punishment for what ive done

Oh my god what a disgusting thing to say. Imagine if someone said "well lucky you get to ejaculate sperm" to a transfem. That would be absolutely fucked up. Neither of these things are okay. Check your internalised transphobia.

absolutely abysmal that a so called safe space for disabled and chronically ill people is taking the side of doctors and the medical system. Y'all should really know better, they ain't trynna help you, otherwise they would've done so 5 years ago before your symptoms became detrimental and ruined your life

is there a gender for "I don't give a fuck anymore so long as I get to have a cock instead of the fuckery I have now"? Asking very explicitly for myself

Dear diary...

All of this feels so pointless...

I feel like I'm wasting my time here.

There's no point in me being here if all I ever do is suffer...

What if you pass really well but you're still horribly dysphoric and depressed 🙄🙄🙄. /j

Never forget that the purpose of transitioning is to make you happier not to make you pass!! You may never end up being able to pass but don’t let that take from your happiness.

My most toxic trait is thinking "there's people far worse than me" is a legitimate excuse. Like it really is in my opinion. But for some reason that seems a way of toxic thinking and now I'm feeling conflicted

Something that's severely undertalked about it the loneliness and lack of real friends that come with being disabled, both mentally and physically. I especially don't see physically mentioned a lot.

But how tf am I supposed to have close friends when I'm constantly sleep deprived? If my general physical strength and endurance are severely limited?

I'm not saying I'm mentally ill, but today I bought a new teddy bear because I had been looking at it for a couple weeks and finally caved into the temptation. Yet the moment I put it down on my bed, I felt an overwhelming urge of guilt and disgust and the need to throw it away and apologize to my old, trusty teddy. And now the new one won't stop looking at my with its devilish eyes and I actually want to get rid of it even though it's like brand-new but I also DO NOT want to touch that thing anymore.

love how easily people show their true face when you say women objectively have it worse than men

when women’s oppression gets brought up, i can’t stop admiring men’s unwillingness to admit that their “suffering” isn’t caused by women.

“men die at wars😞😠” and guess who’s sending them to wars! and guess who made it so that historically only men can go into the army!

“we aren’t allowed to express our emotions😢” or what? you won’t fit the standard of a strong heroic man? who made that standard?

“women are gold diggers😒why must i pay for you at the restaurant?🤨” who set up the system in which women had no income and were dependant on their husband?

bro. i’ll tell you why your hand is hurting and bruised. that’s because you keep punching women in the face.