🌸 You're Not In The Track, When You Think You Clinging With Me Will Make You Something More Than My

💮Never have I tried to rewatch my past to narrate myself. I know it's a mess, it's random, but I can feel it something beautiful. Everything fall in place just like a story. Sometimes I welcome the circumstances which fall in place. I watch, suffer, break, but never intend to mess with the sequence. The mishappenings seems beautiful in a chaotic way, and perfectly put. I think, 'Won't be a nice storyline to narrate?'💮

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Thanks for tagging me @alex-a-roman

So.....

1) My hands get warmer instead of turning cold while I'm anxious.

2) I stammer a lot while talking to new people, but can give a lecture on a topic I like for 2 hrs.

3) weird food combos for the sake of experiment (ate noodles with chocolate sauce and many more oddities; ngl it was tasty)

Don't have much people to tag still (no pressure) :

@drunkwithdionysus @lockedpov @xxx-wrenfinch-xxx @wordlywriter

We all have unique traits, quirks, & habits about ourselves. Name 3 lil' oddities about yourself. I wanna know everyone's mildly freaky sides.

1) I only eat cereal at night.

2) I'm ambidextrous

3) I'm a sleepwalker. (My Dr. said I should grow out of it, but I haven't.) No, I don't take Ambien.

I'm tagging some outrageously awesome people. Join in if not tagged; I'm bad with names. Reblog with 3 weird factoids & tag...You know the drill. 😁

@elizabethnicole1951 @rubenesque-dollyd-93 @s-usans-blog @moonstar-magic @crossdresserica @googleme420 @justhiitit @loveherallican-blog @lizzy52955 @justmeagain4 @laughing-with-the-wind @dark-horse-1 @cheflew @jamesternes @iamgroot65 @oshea52 @needingthatsomething @bluelady329 @diavolaangelica @wildrice3 @iamgroot65 @abymg @demeter1111 @wildrice3 @i-j0s @nadira2269 @artinwood54 @taoofhope @lorenzoci @bcourchaine

The outside there, is dreadful.

“If I end up in heaven and you’re not there, I’ll do all it takes to be cast out. - A. A. Roman”

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🍁It would be hard for me~

It would be hard for me act indifferent while I'm suspicious and sometimes right, all those pair of eyes in this open world are swallowing me whole while I do nothing but walk alone, beside the stand. It would be hard to breathe while I'm having that ache inside my chest out of anxiety when I listen about others and imagine, how horrible the judgment might be while talking behind someones back.

It would be hard to wake up early in the morning while only 24hrs seem like a huge unknown ocean of "what ifs" and "would happen". It would be hard for me to be lonely with this "bitter" version of myself. It would be hard, nearly impossible for me for not to care what others opine, for I used to grow up amidst compliments and I've learned "how people see us define ourselves ". It would be hard to walk with blacked out visions and endless palpitition almost through my ribs.

It would be hard to see myself being hard on this submissive entity, recklessly pushing herself off the cliff while maintaining that obsessive urge to be "perfect". I choose to be ordinary, I fear I might be inherently "weird" and I'll, along with all the people will judge myself for that.🍁

Ahh yes.... 🔥🔥🔥❤️❤️

250214: stress - chungha

Out of all people, I fell in love with you,

isn't that divine, sweetheart?💫

Don't you know jealousy, is a kind of pain? A pain, of not being enough?

🌟Sometimes I'm scared of how

I deny the reality and live inside my head, in the most comfortable corner I've created despite the darkness.

How complex and detailed view are there in my mind about everything I see. I'm scared to be different. Scared to fight with almost everything that's against me. One pain of being different is the fear of being lonely. But the urge never stops itself.

Sometimes I'm scared, I see I'm turning into something I shouldn't. And the scariest thing is, no one ever notices how, a complete stranger from inside, is walking around wearing the old, acquinted shell of their very own girl.

When they throw "you're just like your mother" hoping as an insult but its genuinly the best compliment you had in the day.