Sam: It’s All Wrong. By Rights We Shouldn’t Even Be Here. But We Are. It’s Like In The Great Stories

I feel left out of the Spotify wrapped posts on Instagram

Am I the only person in the world who doesn’t use Spotify?

executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”.  it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it. 

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks. 

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

🌌 25 celestial asks

solar system: what is the driving force behind your good deeds?

earth: rivers or seas?

moon: do you play any instruments?

jupiter: how tall are you?

sun: if you could live in any past decade, when would it be?

mars: do you believe in life on other planets?

saturn: favourite song?

venus: are you religious?

milky way: what’s your favourite chocolate bar?

neptune: what’s your favourite music genre?

uranus: sexuality?

mercury: what’s your favourite school subject?

pluto: is pluto a real planet or fake?

andromeda galaxy: what’s the farthest you’ve travelled?

ceres: how old are you?

crab nebula: favourite colour?

asteroid belt: favourite accessory?

pleiades: star sign?

orion nebula: sweet or salty?

sirius: favourite fictional character?

eris: what’s your dream job?

halley’s comet: what’s your opinion on fate?

callisto: do you like ice cream?

dysnomia: favourite sound?

deimos: if you could go to space, would you?

Love Lies

Love latches onto my heart like a leech

Wriggling into every hidden space

Do not take all of me, I beseech

This parasite within, tightens its embrace

Love takes my words and twists them

Spewing lines that make no sense

My own mouth I do condemn

I stumble to describe feelings so immense

Love grows up my spine like a rose bush

Beauty hiding the thorns

Against my lungs exquisite flowers push

But when the plant dies, it’s the thorns my love mourns

I ask love not to take too much of me when it dies

Love said it would take nothing from me,

love lies

~ A.L. Heart

book quotes that i will never recover from

"he is half of my soul, as the poets say. " - song of achilles

"write me a letter telling me how to live the rest of my life without you." - how to make friends with the dark

"they were my birthday presents." - shatter me

"she had realized that she had forgotten the precise blue of his eyes and the depth of his laugh." - clockwork princess

"my name is sam cortland... and i will not be afraid." - assassin's blade

"you chose me four years ago. would you choose me still?" - these violent delights

"we were all supposed to make it." - crooked kingdom

"i remember everything." - the invisible life of addie larue

"come home and shout at me. come home and fight with me. come home and break my heart, if you must. just come home." - cruel prince

"i wasted all those yesterdays and am completely out of tomorrows." - they both die at the end

"you hated the idea of me." - the final gambit

"bob says hello." - house of hades

"abuse can feel like love. starving people will eat anything." - nightfall

"i missed you only with an ocean between us. but if death was separating us... i would find you." - queen of shadows

"i loved him. i love him. as best i could." - we were liars

"i'm the villain, even in my own story. but you were supposed to play a different role." - finale

"i will find you again in the next world—the next life. and we will have that time. i promise." - a court of wings and ruin

"i spent half of my time loving her and the other half hiding how much i loved her." - the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

“Some truths do nothing but destroy and decay what they do not obliterate. Truths do not always set one free. Only a fool who has spent their entire life being fed lies believes that.”

~ Jennifer L. Armentrout, From Blood and Ash

Am I the only person in the world who doesn’t use Spotify?

“There’s no Hogwarts without you, Hagrid.”

R.I.P. Robbie Coltrane (March 30, 1950 - October 14, 2022)

🌿🌄 — [all pictures from pinterest]

Just imagine :

What are you to me?

Nothing

And what am I to you?

Everything