I Made This Like 5 Months Ago And Never Posted It

'I'm a top" "I'm a bottom' okay??? I'm Jack's raging bile duct??? I'm Jack's cold sweat??? I'm Jack's complete lack of surprise??? I'm Jack's inflamed sense of rejection??? I'm Jack's smirking revenge??? I'm Jack's broken heart???

MILF (Man I Love Fightclub)

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Born to make daily long posts about nuanced aspects of my favourite films and headcannons, forced to be too stupid to be coherent

The whole 'a part of me died with him' concept but literally. After Tyler dies the narrator had huge chunks of memory gone, and unable to remember anything from that period of time Tyler was around.

Narrator going on a plane weeks later, and seeing the fake pamphlets Project Mayhem planted and completely believing them, getting panicked and sweaty at the sight of them, not being able to sleep through the flight like he vaguely remembers being used to.

For months he feels like something has gone, like when you forget a word but he felt it about an entire portion of his life, it was just gone. He sees a woman at an insomniac support group and feels uneasy, like he saw her in a dream somehow. Running out of the room when she calls him 'Tyler', even though he used fake names all the time, and probably had used that one at least once before.

At bars the men call him 'Sir', and 'Mr Durden', and he doesn't understand why- maybe it's the suit, maybe these bruised and bloodied men respect his authority, even though he knew he had lost enough weight over months to just look like a child playing dress-up.

"You look like Chloe" a voice whispered in the back of his skull as he lookedat his nude body, it was a voice that certainly felt like his, but he had no clue anymore. He puts it all down to a lack of sleep. People do crazy things when they're tired enough, he tells himself daily as new oddities pop out.

One day, after considering himself healed enough from what he considers a mental breakdown, he attempts to go back to work, only to get a panicked look from the pretty young receptionist and security called. He doesn't know what happened, but he wasn't working there anymore.

And even the bus driver is calling him 'Sir'.

Pointless Fight Club AU where everything is the same except Tyler Durden is a fully transitioned trans man and the Narrator meets him while pre-everything and still struggling with feeling the need to supress his masculinity. Instead of soap he and Tyler run a gray market t gel operation. Is this anything

I will not accept the propaganda that tyler is incapable of being affectionate ok. him holding narrator in his arms after the car crash was not necessary. he didn't have to start crying after the chemical burn. he is so touchy with narrator in the book. he openly acknowledges that narrator loves him and doesn't seem to be emasculated by it. I don't think it comes very easy to him since his purpose is to be assertive and masculine but he's certainly capable of showing affection for reasons that go beyond just trying to manipulate narrator.... much to think about

if i had a girlfriend i would let her shoot me

I am going to chew on and kill Pilot I swear I'll get him one of these days

Haven't seen it yet but I hope the Mickeys have weird gay selfcest sex